MIKA
There are still so much things I wanted to do with him, feelings I wanted to feel and to make him feel.
"Ling, tara na uwi na tayo. Di mo na kaya oh!"
"Ano ka ba? Kaya ko pa no! Bhie let's drink pa, KJ netong si Kim eh." I said raising my glass.
Bakit nga ba ako nagpapakalasing ngayon?
Hindi naman mababawasan niyang alak yung sakit na nararamdaman mo eh. Bukas pag gising mo, pag wala nang epekto yung alcohol sa utak mo, masasaktan ka ulit.
Tss. Sana nga hindi na ako magising eh! I hissed.
We broke up exactly one year ago today.
He wanted to focus daw on his basketball career. He was too preoccupied.
Kaliwa't kanang endorsements, guestings, morning and evening trainings, school. Saan niya pa ako isisingit?
We barely see each other. From once a week, to twice a months, to once a month hanggang sa wala na.
I didn't demand for his time. I never did. Kung meron ngang "Most Understanding Girlfriend" award, I surely am will be an awardee. Inintindi ko siya.
I waited. Naghintay ako kasi yun ang sabi niya. "I will just finish all of these, babe. After ng season na 'to, we can do everything we want na." Inaway ko siya nun kasi isang buwan niya na akong hindi dinedate. I go to his practice just to see him. "Para naman sa'yo to eh, para sa future natin."
Para sa future namin. Yun yung pinanghawakan ko. He's seeing a future with me, he's preparing for it. Ano ba naman yung ilang buwang pagcocompromise ko para sa pangmatagalang happiness namin diba?
Until someone sent me a picture of him and a girl, who happens to be my greatest rival, at a hotel lobby in Singapore, together, holding hands.
Seagames, he's gonna represent the county.
Akala ko tinatrabaho niyang talunin yung mga intsik dun. Aba, may iba pa palang tinatrabaho ang gago.
Pero hindi padin ako tumigil, hinintay ko yung explanation niya. Hinintay kong sabihin niyang "Babe, wala kaming ginawang masama, ikaw ang mahal ko" na kahit alam kong ginagago niya lang ako, tatanggapin ko padin kasi nga, tanga ako.
Pero wala. He was just silent when I asked him about the girl and their little escapade on Singapore. Silence means Yes, I guess.
She got the girl pregnant.
One year had passed, akala ko naka move-on na ko. Akala ko okay na. Pero when I heard about it, bumalik lahat ng sakit. Nawala lahat ng hopes na babalik siya sakin. Na one day, he's gonna be on his knees asking for my forgiveness tapos sasabihin niyang he wants me back, na hindi niya pala kayang mabuhay nang wala ako.
"Bhie, kung ako yung nabuntis niya, hindi niya siguro ako iiwan no?" I laugh at my own thoughts.
"Gaga! Tara na nga, umuwi na tayo." Yaya ni Tin, after hugging me real tight.
Buti nalang andito sila, my friends, teammates, sila Mama and Papa, my family. Buti nalang matatag yung support system ko.
JERON
She has always been there, kung wala siyang taping she makes sure she watches my game. We go on dates every weekend. She hangs out with my sisters.
We dated for almost a year but maybe we aren't really meant for each other.
I like her; she's my kind of ideal girl.
Pero sabi nga nila, you know she's it for you when she brings out the best in you. Unfortunately, she's not bringing out the best in me. I am not my real self when I am with her.
