It's been 3 years ....
3 years of loneliness.
I really missed the old me. The old ... Ysabelle Ang. The strong one, the one who is always happy, always wearing smile on her face enevthough ... she was suffering a severe disease.
The old Ysabelle Ang.
"So, congrats! You've made it! You're now officially Senior Student."
"Thanks Miss Jen." I said then i flashed a ... fake smile.
"Are you happy?"
"Uhm .. yes? no? maybe? Argh. I don't know."
"Sab, you're already 16. Just listen to your heart. It's a free country! You can do what you want."
"I know. But my parents ... they're all against my decision. You know what I really want."
"Sab .. In that case, maybe you should just listen to your parents. Just forget what I've said earlier. They know what they're doing. It's for the best."
"I know. They're just concern. But what the fudge?! I missed my old life! I missed the old Ysabelle Ang!"
It's been a loooooooong years since na-discovered nila yung sakit ko. Sakit na naging dahilan para mabago ang takbo ng buhay ko. Ang hirap tanggapin na nabago ang buhay ko because of this freakin' severe disease that I'm suffering.
It's been 3 years since iwan ko ang dating buhay ko. Iniwan ko yung mga taong nagmamahal saken. Yung mga taong binibigyan ako ng halaga. Because of this fuckin' disease !! Everything changed. I leaved them without saying goodbye ... without explaining my side. I don't want to be a burden. Ayokong kaawaan nila ako.
"Kapag ba bumalik ako sa dating buhay ko .. mapapatawad pa nila ako? Tatanggapin pa nila ako?"
How I wish it would be easy to go back to my old life ...
I badly missed them ...
I missed him ..
