My Story!

Gone!

2 weeks later...

"I still can't believe she's gone Ronnie, if she didn't want to leave that much she could of came to me!" I wept to Ronnie. So Em was supposed to move to Africa last week but didn't, instead she got really badly depressed and killed her self! I still can't believe it and since I'm sad all the time my parents kicked me out for making them 'depressed' with my sadness. Ronnie offered me to move in with him so I did, Ronnie is a year older than me and is really smart so he started home schooling me. It's so hard though since I'm madly in love with him. " It's going to be okay Jess, I know it hurts now but the pain will slowly fade away." He pulled me closer as he said this and I sunk my head into his chest.

Ronnie's POV

"I still can't believe she's gone Ronnie, if she didn't want to leave that much she could of came to me!" Jess managed to burst out in-between her constant crying, I felt so bad on her my heart breaks when she is sad I really love her soooo much and I was planning on telling her this weekend but she is so sad I couldn't drop the 'L bomb' on her, it's not just that which is stopping me from telling her it's our friendship I'm worried about 'What if she doesn't feel the same way?' I think to myself every time I want to tell her that I love her and never want to let her go. "it's going to be okay Jess, I know it hurts now but the pain will slowly fade away." I softly tell her as I pull her closer to me and she buries her face in my chest, we are snuggling up on my bed in our batman pj's watching sws live. I softly kiss her on the head and pull her even closer, so close that if she was any closer I would probably accidently suffocate her. She then looks up at me and I stare right into her deep blue eyes, her eyeliner and mascara running down her face. 'Dam I really want to kiss her beautiful lips' I thought to myself.

Jess's POV

I look up at Ronnie's perfect face to help maybe cheer me up and I stare deeply into his lively green eyes, his whole face was perfect! 'oh how I want to just jump up and lip lock with him!' I think to myself. Then boom we were BOTH leaning in, I sort of panicked and pulled away! 'what am I thinking I have been dreaming of this moment for years and I pull away! I'm so stupid now he's going to think I don't like him that way!' Then with the best save ever I say "Ronnie, are you sure?" and he didn't pull away so I started leaning back in and then there it was the moment I have been dreaming about our lips touch, his hands dart to my hips and he pulls me closer, now it's officially impossible for me to be any closer to his body. My hands go to his head, my fingers entwining in his hair.

Ronnie's POV 

I start leaning in 'oh shit what the fuck am I doing? well no going back now, right?' Jess starts leaning in 'yes! yes! yes! I have waited forever for this moment' then BOOM Jess pulls away 'NO! NO! NOOOO!' "Ronnie are you sure?" she softly says to me, I lightly nod and she does back and we start leaning in again, our lips lock! I pull her closer even though now that is physically impossible. She entwines her fingers in my hair, it feels so good like a hole was filled!