(oops I said I would only upload this if it was interesting. I lied)
Last night my roommate was being really violent and saying things like: "I think all wolves are monsters and should be put down, shot right through the lungs."
It made me feel very upset and angry and I felt offended to say the least.
On a more positive note, I fell asleep in a wolf position as I usually do and I'm slowly training my body to get used to that position, as I prefer it. However, I woke up and it was pitch black, possibly early morning and I moved back to how a human was sleep. Ugh.
Right now I'm sitting in a free period and should probably be doing my english prep which is due in an hour. I'm back on good terms with my roommate I feel but I still think she should think about the way she acted last night. It's still kind of bugging me.
In my lessons so far I have been experiencing involuntary mental shifts. I'm struggling to control them to be completely honest and it's scaring me a little but I'm sure it's just because I am very tired and I want to go into autopilot which usually involves being either mentally or sensory shifted into my wolf. That's it so far, I need to get to my English prep and try and get to question 20 at least. Poetry analysis is just the most disgusting thing ever to be given to a child.
I will update this if anything else happens today!
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I'm sitting in another free period and I think I have more homework to do but it isn't due yet. I suddenly have the urge to run. Anywhere, I don't care. I just want to run. I might go and make some food or continue working on my practice tail because I find it theraputic but this urge won't go away. Do other therians have it? It's like an acheing in my chest. At my school there is these woods and I walk past them on the way to sport most days and almost can't resist the urge to just let the wolf loose and stalk around in the woods for a while.
Christmas is on the way and I'm excited but I feel a bit disconnected from all the celebrations right now. I think I'm just exhausted but it's making me snappy and I'm honestly worried I'm going to bite someone or growl at someone I shouldn't. I know as therians we should be thankful for our human side as well but right now I just want to escape and be mentally shifted all the time because when I'm in wolf mentalilty I'm never stressed, since canines are always in the moment and it allows me to forget any stresses.
#therianstruggles XD
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ДуховныеSeen a few others do this and decided I would as well. I'll only upload it when interesting things to do with my therian experiences happen. Also, any people featured will have aliases to protect their identity. Hate therians? Shoo :)
