She's Broken

Chapter Seven

Aria POV
Continuation of Chapter Six.
(Warning: contains some graphics and please do not think or do any of the things that Aria does to herself in this chapter)

    My hands were shaking as I help the black envelope in my hands. Aria. It read, I noticed the other girls contemplating on wether we should open them or not. How bad could it be, right? We've dealt with "A" before.

     I begin to tear the envelope open as do they; "Oh My God." We all say in unison. The letter reads:

Liar, Liar,
Little Aria has the darkest secrets, doesn't she? But, skeletons can only hide in the closet for so long. Soon, all will know what you've been hiding. What will everyone think? An illegal student-teacher relationship? Self-harm? Even her other terrible secrets? Trust me I know them all. You can't hide from me, I'm always watching. When it comes down to it, can you keep everyone safe? Will you ever stop being blind? Someone near you is lying to you; who could it be? Hefty Hanna, Loser Mona, Easy Emily, Smartass Spencer? Maybe your enemies are the ones you should be trusting too. Do you really think Mommy and Daddy approve of  Ezra? As soon as you're healed they'll make him stay away. Nothing is ever as it seems little liar. Be careful who you trust. -A

Be careful who you trust? What is that supposed to mean? One of the girls? What about my parents? "A" has to be lying. They wouldn't do that again. Would they?

The thoughts swirl around my mind over and over again. --My head begins to pound at the idea of everything but, I just couldn't take it anymore. 

The tears swell up in my eyes and I hurry into the bathroom. I lock the door just as the tears fall. Sobs fill the bathroom, the girls frantic cries for me to open the door get louder and louder.

"Aria please open up!" "You're not in this alone!" "We're here for you!" "We can't help if you don't tell us what's wrong!" "Aria, I know thinks get bad but we're all in this together!" ....

Finally, I couldn't take their endless shouts trying to get me to come out so, I open the door.

"I'm fine, okay! You can quit yelling for me to come out because I'm out! Now I think you should all leave!" I didn't mean to tell but the anger just came out of me, I know they were trying to help but one of them is against me. I don't want to believe it but, something is telling me to trust "A" on this.

"Aria, we're not going anywhere. You need us." Spencer soothes calmly.

"Well you're wrong, I don't need you right now! All I need is to be by myself!" I shout. "Just go, please." I say once more, they all pick up there bags and leave. Just as the door closes the tears come again.

"What's wrong with you, Aria? You mess up everything! You're trusting the enemy and you could loose everything! Maybe you should just go away! It'd be easier for everyone! You wouldn't be a complication to them, screw up their lives or hurt anyone! You'll be saving them by leaving! You're worthless!" I cry- yell at myself. Nobody needs you. You're just here to mess up and hurt people, it's what you always do. Everyone would be better off without you.--And they will be.

The only people who would be upset if I left would be Ezra, Jason and Mike but they'd get over it soon. But I have to say goodbye one last time, if I'm going to leave forever they need to know it was me not them. And that I'll always love them.

Dear Mike,
I'm sorry that i haven't been the best sister in the world to you and I know that I never will be. I'm sorry that I have to go so soon but it's better for everyone. It's better for everyone that I'm not here. I won't tarnish our family name by being with Ezra like Mom and Dad say I'm doing. I won't be able to hurt people anymore. I won't be a problem and most importantly everyone will be happy because the person they hate will be gone. Make sure, Ezra moves on to a girl who is incredibly amazing. Make sure, Jason finds a new best friend. Make sure, You find someone who can make your life easier because I can't do this anymore. I love you so much, your the best little brother a girl could ever ask for. You always protect me and I wish I could've told you how I felt but I didn't want to trouble you. You're the first person who's ever actually cared about me and I love you forever for that. Stay strong for me, I'll always be here in your heart.
Much love, forever and always, Aria.