cashier ; kim mingyu

intro

"I ask myself these questions everynight before bed and I ask myself the same ones again when I wake up the very next day ;

What's the point of helping you find someone new when I'm only pushing myself into an ocean of sadness by doing so? Am I not sad enough? Why would I want to make myself suffer even more? Why would I want to see someone else wrap their hands around you when you cry? Why would I want to see someone else comfort you in any way possible when I can do it for you?

and I always give myself the same answers ;

It's because you dont deserve me, you deserve far more better than me. Seeing you like this breaks me and I thought if I can make you happier in any way possible then maybe I can make myself feel happier too because you and your happiness mean the world to me.

but seeing you smile because of him broke me even more

and that's when I realised,

I wanted to be the person who gives you happiness. I wanted to be happy with you and that was all that I've ever wanted but fuck, I'm just not good enough for you and I'm sorry."

started on : 8/12/15
finished on : - / - / -

written by ; nins !!
( this is my first fic ever fyi)