His Assistant ~Jastin

His Assistant Chapter 9:

Justin's P.O.V:

My heart beat was quickly pulsing, my breathing rising to the point it hurt my lungs to take in oxygen. Jason was hovering above my short, slightly shaking frame, as I licked my lips to moisturize them to a dark pinkish color.  Furrowing my eyebrows, my hands clasped securely around his long neck and he looked down at me, as I was flushed, oblivious about his previous statement.  Let's make a deal sweet little boy.

I shivered at his tone, his clear words still ringing in my ears.  Clearing my throat out of the lump that had formed, I managed to speak, my voice croaky and hoarse.  "What?"  Jason chuckled, his eyes still locked on mine in that captivating manner they always seemed to stare, causing my stomach to flip and my heart to skip a beat.

Kissing the tip of my nose, I blushed at the sweet gesture as he took my small, trembling hand in his rather large one, and walked me further into the bedroom along with him. Sitting at the edge of the bed, he pulled me down, causing me to squeal slightly as my butt landed on his lap, his muscular arm tangling around my slim waist and arranging me to move into a more comfortable position, as I sifted to sit so I'd be facing him.

Taking a deep breath, he placed his one hand at the side of my face, his other hand caressing my hipbone through my white dress shirt.  "Justin, I want you to think before you disapprove, alright."  My eyes bore into his as he kept his magical stare on me, causing my breath to hitch, as I nodded hesitantly, placing my hands on my lap and fiddling with my fingers.

"I know you have feelings for me, darling," he rasped, making me freeze in my spot. My heart thumped loudly, my eyes widening and my cheeks flushed to a crimson red shade as I latched my teeth onto my bottom lip, pressing quite roughly, enough to draw blood. "I- what, uh I-," stuttering embarrassingly, Jason shushed me by placing the pad of his thumb on my lips, and softly brushing it in a warm manner.

"I've known since you stepped foot in my office, baby boy," he smirked proudly, making my insides tingle as my body heat rose enough to release smoke from my quivering frame.  "Jason," I gulped, thickly.  But yet again he placed his lips on top of mine, lingering them there for a few seconds and letting his hot breath enter my mouth, making me shiver.

He took my bottom lip in between his wet, full ones, dragging it out before letting it fall back into it's place, causing me to release a tender, soft whimper.  "Just listen," he demanded softly and I nodded.  He sighed heavily, his arm tightening around me and pushing me against his hard chest.  "I've tried staying away from you, and it's pretty obvious I can't do so."

My heart jumped at his words, a shy smile rising on my lips and he shook his head, caressing the skin of my chin, with his thumb. Shivers ran down my spine, as he didn't dare advert his eyes from me.  "Let's get together."  As his voice entered my ears and my brain was able to comprehend what he was saying, I couldn't explain the feeling that took over me.

My heart was fluttering, my fingertips shaking, as I held onto Jason, my lips parting in surprise, my insides all tingly and warm.  I continued to look at him, my face all heated up and red, as his next words caused my stomach to churn in knots, my heart clenching. How fast my feelings changed I couldn't comprehend, due to the heaviness of my heart, that was slowly shattering at his words.

"If you agree Justin, then we are the only ones to know."  I looked at him, my vision glazing with fresh hot tears, as I gulped, his words replaying in my head.  Only ones to know.  He wanted to be with me, yet hide me away from others. For what?

Not to embarrass himself.  I licked my trembling lips, as he looked at me, frowning. He claimed to know my feelings for him and if he truly did, wouldn't he fathom how much his proposition would hurt me?  Having the one man you've ever loved telling you that, in fact you can actually become something.  But perhaps nothing at all.

My mind was clouded with thoughts, as I wanted to push myself off him and run out again in tears, just like I had done before.  I had done it again. Hurt myself knowing I'd be put in this situation, yet walking into fire like it was nothing.  Jason pulled me tightly to his large body, his hand cupping my cheek in soft strokes as he sighed, his eyes clearly spotting the splashes of tears in mine.

"Justin, listen we can still do everything and anything you wish, just keeping it a secret, that's all."  I wanted to slap him. I really did, but couldn't get myself to hurt him. He was just so important to me, maybe he didn't even understand how worthy he was in my life.  I'd let him hurt me, but I couldn't do it to him.

And I'm an idiot for it.  Blinking, I gulped, my voice shaky as I tried to form words but the crashing of my heart and the weakness of my body didn't allow me to speak properly.  "F-for how much of a w-while?"  I held my tears in not allowing them to flow freely, and show off how sensitive I really was. Maybe he knew that as well, just didn't want to admit it.

"I-I don't know, just please consider it, Jay."  I took a deep breath, biting my tongue to keep me from crying as Jason resumed on his speech.  "After dismissal you'll come to my house. I'll take you out, do everything and anything with you. Show you my world... without them knowing your in it."  Through my blurry vision, I managed to squeak out softly, holding onto his biceps, as he held onto me with a death grip.

Resting his forehead on my sweaty one, his lips hovering above my own that were swollen and pouty.  "D-do you have feelings for me, Jase?"

He nodded, "yes, baby."  And that was all he said, making me flinch slightly as I removed myself from him, standing up to my full height.  My voice was hesitant and frightened as I ran my chubby, short fingers through my hair.  "I um, I d-don't know Jason, I need some t-time."  I think I was sure of my answer, just needed to confirm my mind to agree with my broken heart.

Looking up at Jason he nodded, walking up to me and leaving a small amount of space between us.  "No pressure, darling."  I slightly blushed through my pale complexion, nodding softly as he took my hand in his, bringing it up to his lips and placing his mouth at the skin of the back of my hand. Kissing my temple and soothing out my messy hair, he murmured onto my flesh, holding onto my small hips.  "Think as long as you need."

I sighed, quickly sniffing and wiping the small tears, that rested underneath my hazel eyes. Adverting my attention back to his face, the whitish blue color of his eyes pierced to mine, causing my breath to get stuck in my throat. "Can you please take me h-home now?"

Jason smiled softly, pecking my lips and swiping his phone out from the pocket of his suit pants.  I sighed turning around and grabbing my suitcase to throw my clothing messily inside, my mind circling around his spoken words.  Together.  Only ones to know.  Everything and anything.  Without the world knowing. 

If I was to agree, I didn't want him to announce me to the whole universe. Just not hide me away from everyone, as if I was an embarrassment. But he didn't even want that.  My heart ached, as I held myself from breaking down. This was a chance to get to know him. Have him.  Have us.  Me and Jason. But this was all a risky chance, as if I was standing at the edge of a cliff and his slightest heartbreaking move would push me down and have me meeting the ground, to never stand up again.

I loved him without a doubt and that was what was going to answer his question.  My heart, rather than my mind.

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Check out my other story 'Unexpected.' You will not regret it. Currently it is a Zustin one, but I may change Zayn into Jason.  Hope you enjoyed.

- Fatima