Inside Of Me

Girls Night

                  

Ashley

Waiting for anything is always a buzz kill. I texted Justin, about 20 minutes ago and he still haven't respond. Vanessa was sleeping, Britany was still on the phone, and I have no clue where Megan went. She told me she was about to leave real fast. I hate waiting, hopefully Justin don't think I'm thirsty. The difference between him and RJ was that RJ immediately asked for my number. He even said that he wasn't going home without it. The more I continue to think about him is the more I realize that things really went south when he dropped out of high school. All I ever wanted was the best for him, and for us... But you can't make a person change. They have to be willing to change for themselves, not for you.

May 21st, 2012

*Graduation Day*

My family threw me a graduation party and we were all here celebrating. They really made a bitch feel special. None of my friends were here because they had their own graduation parties and this was more of a family occasion. RJ was the only non-family member here, but that was ohk. Everyone met him already. We went upstairs to my bedroom and I closed the door. My sister's room was next to mine, my brother's room was near the stairs and my parents room was a crossed the hall. We started kissing, he grabbed me, wrapping his arms around me and whispered in my ear, "Congratulations." I didn't come up here to do anything but talk.

RJ dropped out of school about 8 months ago. When senior year began, he was working a lot and stopped showing up for school. We didn't go to the same high school, and I didn't want him dropping out but I told him I will still support him as long as he gets his GED. That was in September and he still haven't done anything regarding the GED. I don't know if he changed his mind or if he's just a turtle. What I do know is that he needs to get his shit together, if he plans on staying with me.

"Bae, wait... stop..." I said.

RJ looked at me. "What's wrong?" I didn't wanna complain and I didn't wanna argue but I needed him to know how I felt.

"When are you getting your GED?"

"Why are you still nagging me about that?"

"What do you expect me to do, it's been 8 months and I haven't seen you study or do anything towards getting it."

He was starting to look annoyed.

"Damn, you really starting to get on my nerves, even my mom don't be bugging me about that shit like you do!"

"I'm only bugging you because I care."

"You think just because you graduated today and I didn't you're the only one with a future?!"

Now he was in his feelings. "Rob, I'm not tryna to argue with you." He took his phone off the charger and headed towards the door.

"Ohk, I think Imma just head home then." RJ said.

"Alright then!" I said. Every time we got into a small argument, he never wanted to finish. He would always be ready to go and we would never solve anything. When he did that, it drove me crazy.

*Back to July 16, 2014*

"Hey Ash, where's Meg?" Britany asked, finally hanging up on Devin.

"I have no idea." I said. Megan texted us in our group message saying that she was about to leave but we'll be right back. We checked to see if her car was still here, and it was. That means that someone had to come pick her up, most likely her boyfriend. None of us met him yet, but we know that Megan can take care of herself and wasn't worried.