Little Birds ~Janoskians&1Direction Fanfic~

1st part ~Gaining Strength~

~DAWNS POV~

(NOT EDITED) (FIRST PART OF THIS CHAPTER)

                                                                                        Place: Chillin' in my asylum.

Dear BFF: News flash of the century!                                                                      Date: 6-5-12

You want to know something insainly UNBELIEVABLE? (I'll take your silence as a 'yes') Well Geoff Payne (Liam Paynes father) is my dad. Facinating yet uncomical. I guess writing to you A peace of lined paper) Facilitates finding this out. The only thing that consues me is that Liam is a little angry with me for not wellcoming Geoff with open arms. what can I say? I don't trust that easily! Okay... Only with certain people. 

After waking up an hour after I feel asleep crying I remember my journal I used to write in. basically it's letters to my "BFF" but they never get sent off. In all honesty there's stuff in here I don't want anyone else to read but me, myself, and I. My head is bent in concentration and the yellow #2 pencil is rolling between my pointer finger and thumb. Sighing I close my diary and saved it under my pillow for a latter time. My butt felt numb for sitting on the floor for to long, so getting up I sat on the edge of the comfy bed. 

"Just a kiss on the lips in the moonlight, just a touch of the fire burning so bright...'Just a kiss' by lady antabelum played signaling me that Luke was calling.

"Hello? " My voice sounded groogy from not talking for hours.

"Babe? You sound upset. Is something wrong" He sounded genuanly concerned, but I wasn't in the mood to talk about it.

"I'm fine, Luke." i chuckled to get the message through.

"Are you sure?" He asked unconvinced. I didn't want to lie to him so I said the closesed thing to the truth,

"Just a little confused and tired that's all." 

"Okay... Well just let me know if there's anything I can help you with." I smiled and thought about how cute and sweet he was for a few seconds before another thought crossed my mind.

"Is there a specific reason you called?" I brlurted 'Way to speak your mind, Dawn.' He paused for a long time, so long I thought he had hung up, but then I heard a sigh from his end. 

"i don;t want to worry you anymore than yopu already are." Thought crossed my mind and I imidiatly thought the worst.

"Is Beau and Jai alright? Is it your mum? Is it my mum?!" i quetioned getting quite frantic. His chuckle cought me off gaurd so I stopped imidatly in my pacing tracks. "Then what is it?!" I heard the "swoosh" of the fan from above my head and the clock on the right side of the wall ticking. then luke's voice ran clear through my head.

"There's another picture." Shielding my blue eyes from nothing but the lamp light, I tried to calm myself down. 'Count from 1-10 Dawn. Do what they said t o do at therapy, breath in, breath out.' When I knew I could talk without my voice quevering I said,

"Luke. There's nothing going on."

"I know that. I just wanted to let you know before you find out like you did last time." I grunted in disaproval. 

"Stupid Paparazzii!" I shouted while jumping on my bed face fisrt. 

"Dawn it's fine. As long as I know I have you all to myself, I'm fine. Just know I love you." My heart pounded in my chest and my head felt light from the blush creeping on my face. 

"I love you to." I said, though it was a bit muffled from the purple comforter I was slayed out on. 

"I'll call you latter, okay?" We said our goodbyes and even talking to him doesn't take away the annoying voice in my head. 'Geoff Payne, your dad. Do you know you can?'

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After taking a much needed hot showerI threw on a long knitted sweater, leggings and my grey Uggs. I mentally prepared myself before going down stairs to face everyone. 

"Hey look! It's alive! It lives!" Louis screamed making my enterance ledd suttle. 

"Lou." I said as calmly as I could with out laughing. "if you don't be quiet I'm going to take all your pudding and eat it." his eyes widened in fear.

"You will never take me alive!" he shouted while running to the citchenet, grabing all five packs of rudding and ran. "Ahh! Pudding!" He yelled when he stumbled and dropped a pack. after retrieving it he dashed up to his room with a "slam" of his door. 

"He's been like that this whole time." Niall said as I chuckled. "So are you okay? You know. with everything?" I smiled lightly trying to make it seem like I am. 

"It's definatly something big to find out while you're practacly living with five strangers, and well finding out you're a superstars half sister and said superstar is so unlike you . It sounds like something you get out of a bad telly show." I laughed giving Niall a sweet smile. 

"We'll you're strong. I know you're going to be well." Niall said and gave me a side hug. He smelled teriffic, like polo cologne mixed with a natural, fresh, outdoorsy scent. Right when I was going to thank Niall for his kindness, Zayn walked in, this time wearing a shirt. 

"Hey Dawn! Where were you all yesterday? I missed you." Zayn said coming to the arm of the couch I was sitting at. 

"Oh... Well interesting stuff you missed then."  

Niall and I sat there explaining everything Zayn had missed. He gav me simpithatic looks like everyong else did. 

The day draged on with nothing important happening. I sat in the lether recliner watching The Vampire Diaries on Netflix while eating Nutella and Bananas.

"Hey Dawn... may we talk?" Liam said walking into the lounge room.

"I guess so..." With a sigh, I siad. Liam came to my side, getting on his kneww so he was eye level with me. I paused the show and staired into the half full tub of Nutella. 

"Dawn, I know it's tough to forgive him, but he really wants to fix everything." Him meaning Geoff my father, of course.

"Liam, how do you fix a broken heart?" I asked looking up into his hazel/brown eyes. The pressure on my chest was building and I can feel my nose start to tingle. That only means one thing. I'm about to cry. 'No Dawn. Don't cry. You already looked weak infront of him yesterday, don't cry.'

"Well... You can start by talking to him..." He said not really knowing the answer to my question. 

"I don;t know if I'm ready yet..." I played with the spoon I had and stirred the Nuttela around a bit. The pressure in my chest was subsiding so I felt more confidant. "But I can at least try..." I sighe a little and looked back up to Liam who had a huge smile on his face.

"That's a start!" He chuckled and taped my chin with a clenched fist in his playful way.

************************************************************************************************************~Don't worry babes. It's not over yet. this is the beginign of this chapter. there's more latter

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