Between two Bodies

Time Has Come

I wake up, my back is sore, my fever is now 107, and I basically look like a ghost. The doctors say I could die anytime now since they can't save me. Looks like Sam was right, I shouldn't promise something like this.
He has been visiting me every day this week. Always having to stand by the door. I can't even kiss him goodbye. He doesn't know exactly that I will die soon. I'm going to have to tell him today. "Ok Jessie time to take your pain killers" Paiton says. She is my nurse. She told me her brother died of meningitis when they were 5. They were twins, and were so close.
"What's the point, I'm dieing, I can deal with the pain, don't give it to me" I say. "You have to have hope" she says. "I'm not giving my hopes up on this" I say. "Ok jessie, I'm not going to give it to you, have a good rest of the day" she says.
"Hey babe, how you doing today?" Asked Sam. "Not so good, the doctor said" I say tears swelling in my eues. "Don't please I don't want to know" Sam said, tears also in his eyes. "I have too, they said I'm going to pass soon" I say. I didn't say die, it just makes the situation worse. "Babe I told you I didn't want to know" Sam says, tears now running down his eyes. I realized I was now crying too. I wanted so much to just get up and hug him. But I didn't want to give this to him. I started to feel drowsy, and I didn't want to go to sleep, I know what would happen if I did. I couldn't fight the urge to stay awake anymore, so I fall asleep.

Sam

He fell asleep. I know that he might not wake up either. I get in Miles car, and didn't talk all the way back to the warehouse until Miles spoke up. "Hey, you can't wish for him to live, that's just selfish" he said. "Shut up I just thinking I'm losing someone I love" I say. "Ok, just saying he won't feel any pain once he is gone" Miles says. "You don't think I know that, it still hurts alot" I say. "I know, anyways you'll make it through it" he said.
As soon as we are home, I run too our room. I already heard Miles yelling at Hallie, cause she got the money from drug dealing. I didn't need all of this at one time. I sat there crying until supper.
"Hey everyone we are going to pray for Jessie tonight" Miles said. Everyone nodded their head. "It turns out he will pass soon, so we just want to pray for that" he said.
After praying, supper turned into chaos. Selena was just came in, and was yelling at Miles for yelling at Hallie. It turns out they were very close, not together yet, but close. Hallie was telling Selena to stop, but she clearly wasn't listening. I was getting so mad, and fustrated. I guess I just lost it. "SHUT THE HELL UP EVERYONE, I'M DEALING WITH ALOT OF STRESS RIGHT NOW, I HAVE A HEADACHE, AND I'M TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT!" I scream. Everyone went quiet, and I lost my appetit, so I left and went on a walk. I was out there for a while until Miles texted me to come back.
I walked in and everyone was crying. This had to mean what I thought it did. "He's gone isn't he?" I ask. I'm not even sure if I wanted to know the answer. Miles nodded his head. I started bawling right there. I couldn't hold it in anymore.

The funeral

I had to call his parents. It was hard but I did, and they're heading down here for tomorrow. Today was the reception, and I can't go up there by myself. "Hey Selena will you take me up there, I'm scared?" I ask. "You don't have to be scared, but ok" she says. We walk up to the casket, and I see Jessie there. I already can feel the tears swelling in my eyes. Suddenly I get a call from my dad.
"Hey, I thought you were dead, and all this time you were in Californa" he says. "You didn't think to get ahold of me, you could've called a long time ago" I say. "I know, I was stupid, and I want you to know I'm accepting you now, and I'm sorry for your loss" he says. "Thanks dad, but I'll have to think about forgiving you" I say. "I umderstand, I'm coming to the funeral if that's ok" he says. "Yeah, but I have to go, I love you dad bye" I say. "I love you too Sam" he says.
I look back down at Jessie, and I kissed him on the forehead before deciding to leave.
The next day I woke up, and my heart heart was beating really face. "Come on Sam, we gotta get going to the funeral home" says Miles. "Ok, I'll be out soon" I say. I grab the note that I wrote for Jessie that I never got to give him.
It says:
Dear Jessie,
We've hit a big dent in our life. I know you are going to die soon, and it hurts me a lot on the inside, but u know we will make it through it. I love you so much, and the time we've had together was the greatest. From the time we had our first kiss when you told me this plan, to the time of now. I will always remember you babe. I will love you forever and always ♡
Love Sam

On the way to the funeral I get a text from Bailey.

Bailey: see you at the funeral
We will all miss him

Me: yeah I know, see you soon

When we get to the funeral, I see my dad. He walks over to me and gives me a hug. "I've miss you Sam" he says. "Me too dad, me too" I say. Then Bailey comes over and she too hugs me. "God I missed you guys, just wish I would've came here sooner" she said. "It's ok, I know he loved you" I say. His parents, and I ride in the family limo. His parents brought money to pay for it all. They felt real bad not accepting him. We get to the grave yard, and over to where he was getting buried. I started crying again as soon as they set his casket up. Right now I couldn't believe how much I've cried in the past week. In the last year really my life has changed alot. Yet sometimes it took a turn for the worse. There were alot of times it was a good change though, and I'm happy. I know that Jessie is not hurting anymore, even though I'm going to miss him alot. That is what makes me happy, knowing that he is in a better place, I guess.