Entrapped wishes

HIS SIDE

I shouldn't understand it. I love her and I shouldn't. Her mom and my dad is getting married. But I couldn't tell him. That I love her.

But there is a thing that I and my father know. Yes, me and only him. A plan that would allow me to love her legally and acceptable.

Probably she questions me in her mind why I didn't say I love you back. even though I kissed her soft glossy lips. Even though I fell for her clear grey eyes. Even if forever cease to exist, I'll love her. Yes, I am inlove with a warm, sensitive, caring, beautiful girl. But let's face it, in her puffy teary eyes, she thinks that my dad's my top priority!

NO!! IT'S CLEARLY HER!

Which brings me to my plan. Yes, I plan to leave my father's name. Which will lead me to my mother's name. But it will also mean that I must leave her. I rejected her love because if ever time would allow us to meet again, I'll mever reject her again. But as of now, I'll follow the saying if you love someone , you must set her free.

Because when I leave, I'll be REALLY away... Maybe permanently. I know that she'll probably know... But I don't want her to wait for me. It'll be like she's stuck in a void, not clearly knowing when you'll get out. She doesn't deserve a guy like me. She deserves someone better.

*sigh* oh how I wish we have met in a diffrent time... I love you can indeed be the words to trap your wishes.