IT AIN'T FAIR... ITS FATE!

Indi's Issues

                  

"Alright, I'll be back baby!" I heard my boyfriend Josiah say as he walked over to me. He kissed me passionately on the lips before he walked towards the door to go on tour. I know I'm supposed to be happy for his success but damn when will I get some time with my man? It has been like this for 3 years now.

In the beginning it was cool because we were just friends but after we got together it just got worse. I love him so much that I deal with this but I know that I don't deserve to be alone at night. I feel like I'm by myself more then I'm with my man. If it wasn't for school then I'd pack a bag and make my way to Los Angeles with my boo.

Wako, Texas is my home and Indigo is the name. Everybody calls me Indi, you might as well do the same thing. Right now I'm in my last semester at Baylor University.  In a couple of weeks I will no longer be an undergraduate. Yay me!

I sit her in the 3 bedroom house and wonder why I couldn't make this happen on my own. Why do I have to Date Josiah from Seven? I got up and walked my man to the door and watched as paparazzi took countless amounts of photos. There are girls of all ages screaming and trying to get to him.  That's something I don't like. These girls need to move to the goddamn side. Why they gotta be all wanting my man and what not. See I just might have to go crazy. I raised my eyebrow and walked to my boyfriend of two and a half years. My Josiah looked at me and kissed me and whispered in my ear.

"Don't Trip baby. I love you and I'll call u when I touch down. Now go back in the house I love you ok." He said sensing that I wasn't feeling this scene. I hugged him for a long time then slowly walked into the house. What the heck is going on with me?

Let me tell you something. I love this boy so much and I can't imagine life without him. I get so scared and really angry when I see other girls around him. These girls are so pretty and bodacious that I wonder if he's going to leave me for one of them. No I just know it. We were high school sweethearts but that was roughly 4 years ago. Not that I have lost my looks but these girls are really making it hard for me. I'm jealous and I can't help it. I've tried and it only puts me back to where I started if not, further back. If he leaves me I don't know what I'm going to do. I have two months in the house without my man. I know that he's going to be in LA with all my goods out for all the women to see. It breaks my heart every time he has to do a show. But I mean he has to do what he has to do to stay on top. That voice of his hypnotizes ladies and I know from past experiences. What should I do?

I know that eventually he's going to cheat. He's going to find a girl that he likes and he's going to have sex with her. I can just feel it. It's like a little bug that just keeps crawling on me. You try and kill it then out of nowhere it comes back to life and starts crawling again. What am I going to do? I love him too much to let him go. I'd kill before I let him just walk out of my life.

I need to talk to my sister Sophia. Though she is younger than me she has some really good advice when it comes to my relationship. She's the only one that I can trust. The only one. I pick up the phone and quickly call her number It rang twice before she answered.

"Hello." She said in nonchalant voice.

"Hey Sis! What's wrong? U sound down." I ask I know when something's bothering my sister  I can tell.

"Nothing finals are coming up and I'm just stressing nothing too big." She says. I don't believe her for one bit but I move on.

"Ok well don't worry about them you'll do fine." I tell her. She's the type to get really down when something is bothering her. Its hereditary I guess.

"Thanks. So what's up? Why you call?" She said getting to the point. Gotta love her for that.

I sighed really hard trying to hold in the slight bit of rage that went through my body.

"It's Josiah Sis!" I confessed. "He's cheating and I just know it." I said beginning to vent. "Every time he leaves there always so many girls around I just know he can't be faithful to me. They're gorgeous for crying out loud. What should I do?"

I hear some ruffling in the background I wonder what she's doing.

"OK sis I'm going to lay it on you straight ok?" She began

"Ok!" I said expecting the worst but hoping for the best.

"You have trust issues. You don't trust Josiah. If you love him like you say u do then you'll leave it alone and if he does cheat then y'all don't need to be together in the first place." She started writing something down. I could hear the pen moving in the background.

"Thanks Sophia. I really needed that. I don't know if I'm going to just stop what I'm doing and just listen but I'll make sure to keep that in mind."

"And that's all I ask. I don't give advice for u to follow it step by step. Just take my words with you and if u need them, then use them. That is all I ask."

"Ok well I'll let you go. You seem to be busy."

"Alright sis, Call me if you need anything ok?"

"Will do!"

"Aight bye"

"Bye"

And just like that the conversation was over. I don't know what I'm going to do but I'm not going to give up my fight just yet. I'm going to pay my Josiah a little visit.

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