Thoughts

Everytime

I feared this would happen, i knew it would its just now you don't want to tell me even though you can tell i know.  I never meant to make feel jealous just understand that like you i moved on just i didn't fully i never truly do with someone like you. But if you choose to leave i see i can no longer stop you, things will change for me and go back to how they were. Honestly just knowing i could hear from you made me feel more confident then i have in years, more motivated to do things just be who i truly am instead of the shell i left for everyone. And as for the stake i never meant for that but i had a tree pushed though mine cause of what you told my brother "I was a mistake? You never should have met me", things like that? Why do you think i went into that god damn dark hole i called my life. In a way i wanted to die and knowing i was about to gave me a rush of satisfaction but something always pulled me away from it. And now we are as we once were in a way i know what its like to be in your shoes been there done that and didnt want to put you though that. Yet it still happens, just know your choice is your choice ill be around regardless and you know how i feel about you so just remember that please is all i ask.