Mark of bates

Chapter 11

Chapter 11:

Carmens pov

I woke up the next morning wearing one of Nixon's shirts, I took a whiff of the material and sighed happily at the smell of him. It was then I realized that he was shirtless, I turned my attention to his sleeping face then softly traced the outlines of his toned stomach. I ran my fingers lightly all the way down to the prominent V that lead into his boxers.

I blushed at the thought, but continued trailing my hands up his torso. Oh how id love to lick his beautiful abs! I glanced at his sleeping figure and smiled #yolo! I bent slightly and just as I was going to trail my tongue down the Center I was flipped around, with a heavy breathing Nixon on top of me. Looking down at me with dark eyes, I smiled shyly and he shook his head.

"What were you doing?"  He demanded

My cheeks heated up in embaressment before I replied "I-i just wanted to touch you"  I muttered, he groaned softly looking to be having a war with himself before he growled "fuck it" and slammed his lips onto mine in a passion filled kiss.

My hands instantly found their way to his hair as I kissed back with all that I had. His lips were so soft and the tingles that spread everywhere felt so so good, he pushed his tongue into my mouth and I gladly let him. He easily took dominance in the kiss, but I had different plans.

I pushed his shoulders up and flipped us over, still in a heated lip lock. I was now straddling him and I didn't fail to notice he was slightly excited. If you catch my drift. I smiled down at him before whispering in his ear "this is more like it" he shivered and I am not sure what possessed me to do it but I ground myself against him. He let out a loud groan as his hands shot to my waist "careful little mate" he growled lowly, I smiled dragging my nails softly down his bare chest and grinding into him again. He pulled my head down slamming his lips to mine as I continued to put pressure on his 'little friend' I smiled into the kiss, a plan forming in my head. I broke the kiss and leaned in close beside his ear before whispering "and I take care of what's mine."

From there I dragged my tongue down his abs moaning at the taste, before trading him at the waist band of his boxers. He was completely focused on me, his dark eyes following my every Action. And swiftly pulling down his boxers, his member sprung free and I gripped it at the base.

He let out a soft groan and his hands found their way into my hair. I looked up at him smiling and catching his eye contact before engulfing him into my mouth. He groaned loudly "God you smell good. Anyone could smell you from a mile away" he groaned out then tensed "mine" he growled going to flip us over. I lifted my head and put a hand on his chest softly and whispered "yours."

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I was now sitting frustrated as Nixon paced back and forth infront of me. Seemingly mad at the pleasure I
Just gave him.

"do not do that ever again." He growled pointing an excusing finger at me. My heart throbbed at his words but I kept on my death glare "why? You seemed to love it." He growled at me, dragging his hands through his hair "just don't ever do it again. You know what, don't even come near me" he snarled and I couldn't keep the hurt look off my face, but suddenly rage filled me as he took long strides to the door. Tears unknowingly were streaming down my face as I screamed at him "WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF!?" I cried loudly, he froze and slowly turned facing me with a blank expression. "Just don't carmen" he growled and I growled right back "No! I won't stop, I want you and only you! You are my mate, my other half and it freaking kills me to look at you every day and see how much you "don't" want me! But I know you do! Your sending my mixed signals and I can't handle it anymore, your breaking me piece by piece. Please what are you so scared of? Is it me? Am I not good enough, am I not Luna material? Just tell me what's wrong and how I can fix it!" I screamed as I wiped tears from my face furiously "YOU are my mate and not even an hour ago you were claiming me as yours, being possessive like a normal alpha mate! I can't handle these mood swings it's breaking me and soon all I'm going to be is an empty shell of a girl if you don't tell me WHAT YOUR SCARED OF!" I screamed, breaking down and sinking to the floor.

Suddenly Nixon was in front of me, lifting me up and holding me a foot away from him "you, God damn it! I'm afraid of you! Because I'm falling for you and k shouldn't be!!! You should not be my mate, you should be mates to someone who can care for you in a way I can't who can keep you safe! In a way I can't. but god damn it I'm a selfish son of a bitch and want you for myself! Even if I can't fully have you. I LOVE YOU CARMEN.
I am in love with your smile
I am in love with your voice
I am in love with your body
I am in love with your laugh
I am in love with your eyes
I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU."

He was breathing heavily a hurricane of emotions swirling through his eyes as I stared in shock "and love means sacrifice, but I'm not willing to sacrifice you to my world, to the dangers that surround me. Ill be damned if you have to live with the burdens I carry." He huffed, tears brimming at his eyes

"If it means being with you, I don't care. I want you and only you Nixon. I want to mark you, mate with you, have pups with you. Run this pack with you. You are my future, and if a sacrifice is what's stopping you then you are stupider then I had once thought" I whispered then threw myself into his arms a crying mess "I can't do this to you. I can't do this to you" he kept muttering over and over again as he held me tightly "I'm doing this to myself, to be with you, whatever this is doesn't matter if I can be with you"

"I love you Nixon."