The Unwanted Two

Chapter 6

I finally get home and I jump face down on my bed. How the fuck am I gonna explain this to Harry?

I kept think about it. I look at my wrist and I remember the pain I went through and the times I felt like flying. Tears are now falling on my face. One after another.

My mom had already left. I let my tears fall down on my cheeks. One after another, more and more. I didn't care who saw me cry.

My phone buzzes and it's a text from Harry. "Hey. Do you have time to talk?" I read. I wiped the tears away even though more were still forming. "Yeah" I replied. I am anxious of what he is gonna think when I tell him.

"I want to let you know first that I am not gonna judge you. I am not gonna leave you either. Ok?" He said. I felt a bit of  relief. "Ok." I said. "So do you wanna say why or do you want me to tell you why I did this?" He asked.

I get to thinking. I can't do this through text. Something big like this can't be through text. "Wait, Harry. I can't do this through text. Can you come over?" I texted him. I needed to say it face to face. I can't do it through text evaluate my mom is a snooper and reads some of my messages and she doesn't know that I am suicidal.

"Ok. If you want me too. Text me you address." He replied. "Ok. My address is" I sent him my address. "Ok. I will be there in a few. Please don't do anything crazy." He replied. "I won't." I texted back.

I pick up a few things off the ground. I don't want Harry to think I am messy. I want to impress him more than anything. I go downstairs and sit on the couch anxiously, waiting for Harry to come.

Knock knock. I look towards the door. Harry was the first thing to come to mind. I go over to the door and opened it. His green eyes meet mine.

"Hello Erika." He said. "Come in Harry." He said. I widen the door for him to come in. "You have a nice house Erika." He said looking around. "Thank you, It's actually  loft" I said.

"Is your mum here?" He asked. I nodded no,"She has a business trip." "Is your dad here?" He asked an other question. "Nope." I said popping the p. "He is on the way back from a business trip." I answered. "So your home alone?" He asked. I nodded. He smiled and looked down.

"So do you wanna talk now?" He asked, I nodded. "Let's sit on the couch." I said and we moved over there. I sat down and he sat down next to me.

"Do you wanna start off or me?" He asked. "Kinda want to go first." I said. He nodded. "I am hear to listen." He said. I nodded and started to talk.

~Harry pov~
"The first time I did it was because I felt lonely. I had no friends and I still don't. Nobody talked to me, I was useless. At school I was ignored. My mom and dad were always gone. It was always just me, myself, and I. I have no brothers or sister to talk too. At times I feel unloved, useless, misplaced, and unwanted." She stopped and took a deep breath. She opened her mouth and began to talk again.

"During middle school, people in my grade would make fun of me. They would say I was ugly, stupid, fat, and just all kinds of mean stuff. There was times were I would starve myself. I hated myself more and more everyday. This one night I was in my room crying. All the name calling was getting to my head. I hated myself. I didn't want to feel the pain anymore." Her voice was cracking. I could see the pain in her eyes. "Erika, it's ok. You can stop if you want." I said trying to comfort her. "No I am fine." She said. She is so beautiful. How can some say she is ugly. She is gorgeous.

"I found a blade and I ran it across my arm. I felt numb. I felt no pain. I never wanted to go back to school. I just didn't see the point of going to a place where I am not wanted." How could Erika not feel beautiful? How? She is the most beautiful thing ever.

"At age 15, I was done with the world. I didn't want to live anymore. I hated myself so much at that point. I hated my image. I was ready to die. To take my life away. I was gonna jump off of my balcony. I was sitting in the edge on night. I had tears streaming down my face. I stood over the edge and looked down." He stopped. Tears were running down her face. To see her cry hurts me. I reached for her hands and held them. "It's ok love, stay strong." I said.

"But Harry, I couldn't do it. I just couldn't. I just.." Her voice cracked. She has tears falling down. She pulled me in a hug. She was crying on my shoulder. I hugged her tightly. I want her to feel my love.

"Let it out babe. Your safe now." I try relax her. "Once I got inside I began to listen to music. I didn't cut myself. Music had calmed me." She said facing me. "Ever since I haven't cut daily just sometimes now. I threw away my goodbye letters I left for my mom and dad. And I don't get made fun of, just ignored. Which is way much better." She said.

"Erika. I am very happy you didn't jump. If you did I wouldn't have met you. You are like the only person I talk to. You are beautiful. I don't understand why they called you them names." I said. She began to blush when I said she was beautiful.

"Thank you Harry." She said. "Now it's your turn." She said. Great. I breathed out and looked down.

"Well it started when my mum was very ill."

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