SVU saves Annabell

New school and Broken promise

Annabells prov 

Its been two weeks since i cut my self. Olivia has taken all my razers away so i can't do it again all but one that i hid. Today im starting school and no its not at the school i had the interview at but a different one. This one is more chilled out then rich and snobby. I sorta like it. I was getting ready in my room when olivia comes in. "Hey bell you excited for your first day?" I nod not knowing what to say. "Your gonna make lots of friends i just know it" i look at her and shake me head no and tie my shoe lace. 

" you will..your smart,talented,kind,beautiful" "am not now can we just go please?" She says okay and i grab my backpack and go.  Its takes about 10 minutes to get to my new school from livs apartment  so once im in the car i pull out my favourite book and start reading. The kids back at the orphanage used to call me things like nerd or geek but reading helps me escape from the real world.

I was just getting into it when olivia stops the car and lookas at me"well were here do you want me to come in or.." "ill be fine dont worry" i put my book back in my bag and get out of the car and walk into the school building. Well here goes nothing. 

I pull of my schedule that i got the previous week in the mail and look at what lessons ive got. My first class is maths with mr shaw. Okay all i need to do is find where im going. I must of looked confused  or something cause a teacher walks up to me drawing me out of my thoughts.  "Hello im miss bentley are you new do you need some help?" I nod my head yes she takes my schedule out of my hands and looks at it. "Ah maths with mr shaw okay the room is down the hall and two door on the right okay? Do you think youll be okay finding it?" She asks kindly i nod again not know what else to do "okay good you better be going your already late" and she was off. 

I go down the hall and look at the doors. One...two i stand infront of the door my shaking hand on the door handle to open it. I take a deep breath and open it. The teacher was teaching he hadn't even noticed i was there until i clear my throat "u-um excuse i-im new is this maths with mr shaw?"  Great first impressions bella! "Yes and your late! Take a seat and make sure next time to be on time" i nod and quickly go to the only seat that was advalabe.

"So new girl whats your name " the boy next to me asked "Annabell but you can call me bella" "ah British great thats all we need" the girl infront of him says i just look down at my desk." So brit brat why you here and not in hogwarts?" The same girl sames making the people around me laugh. I ignore her and just focus onthe teacher. "Hey she asked you a question or are you too dumb to remember how to speak" i roll my eyes trying to act like i dont care. She reminds me of Beverly from the orphanage stuck up and mean.

The bell goes and everyone starts excitingthe room. Where did the time go? I go to my locker and put in my combination that i got out of my backpack. I put my maths book in there. I close it and was about to go to my next class when i get slammed into some lockers. I look at the people who did it and see its the people from earlier. "Listen here brit brat no one ignores me got it?!" The girl from earlier says i nod "good now that you know how to be respectful.i want to tell you something  no one and i repeat no one is ever gonna like you...you might as well just go back to where you came from. "

"Whatever" i manage to say and i try to walk away but only to be pushed back. " dont ever speak to me like that, im santana for god sake you should give me respect!!" "Maybe if you give me some then i will " i regret that the second i say it because she starts hitting and kicking me, i fall to the ground and she carries on with her friends joining in. Finally they stop when the bell goes. "Go kill your self you worthless excuse for a girl" santana says as her and her friends laugh and walk off laughing.

I stand up ignoring the horrific pain i feel burning through my body and walk into the bathroom that was thankfully just across the hall. As soon as i know im alone i start crying i dont care if im gonna be late to class i just wanna be alone. After 5 minutes of crying and search through my bag looking for my razer that i hid. I find it and just  play with it in between my fingers debating on if to do it or not.

I know i made that promise to liv and amanda but i just wanna yake the pain away. All the words that Santana and her friends said are replaying in my head as more tears come down my face i make my first cut. And another......and another until i feel numb. I just wanna get out of this world.

All i know is ive broken my promise but i can live with that.