Scared for life

Chapter 1

**FLASH BACK**

Me and my brother just came back from drug dealing. I walk in side and was about to close the door. I hear my dad yelling at my mum "WHY DO YOU CARE ABOUT THAT BITCH" "SHE'S MY DAUGHTER DERIK AND YOURS TOO, BY THE WAY HER NAME IS NOT BITCH, WHORE, SLUT HER NAME IS IZZABELLA!!!!" My mom screamed. I ran up stairs when I heard a smack. Only to be pulled back down by mark.

"Where do you think you are going?!" *smack* "that's *smack* right *smack* you won't *smack* talk *smack* will *smack* you?!" I heard a boom up stairs. I guess my brother saw the concern on my face because he smirked. I need to save mummy I kept thinking to my self. I guess it was the adrenaline kicking in but I kicked mark in the balls and threw a lamp at him. Well..... There goes that lamp. Opps. Well after that mark didn't get up so I thought he went unconscious. So I ran back up stairs. My dad was pointing a gun at my mum's head."mummy" I whispered it was nearly inaudible. My dad turns around and smirks. I see the fear and guilt in my mummy's eye.

She looks at me. "Sweetie go down stairs and play with your doll house.... Please?" my mum was saying it so sweet that you wouldn't be able to tell she was being held at gun point. "NO I WANT HER TO WACH HER MUM DIE FOR DEFENDING HER!!" "DIDN'T I TELL YOU IT WAS A PRIVILEGE TO SPEAK?!" He grabs my arm really tight. I don't even flinch any more. My dad pulls the trigger. Then it all goes in slow motion. The gun going of. It hitting my mummy's head. Me screaming. My brother screaming. My dad laughing. My mummy falling to the floor.

All to soon my dad pulled the gun out at me. But before he could Pull the trigger guys in blue uniforms came in tackling my father to the ground. I screamed in fear and ran into my closet to hide. I heard some one open the door. Sense my closet has only a revealing dirty maids outfit in it you could easily spot me. A girl with blue eyes came in. It looked like my mummy. I started to shake in fear. Was mummy going to hurt me for almost getting her killed. But wait..... She got a bullet to the head. No body can survive that?! Than who is she. She looked at me with concerned, guilty, and pity eyes.

Before I could react I jumped up and yelled "MMMMUUMMYYY YOUR STILL ALIVE I THOUGHT DADDY KILLED YOU!!! HE ALMOST KILLED ME BUT A LOT OF GUYS CAME AND TACKLED HIMMMM. I- I GOT SO SCARED! I'M HAPPY YOUR STILL ALIVE....." "wait what happened to M-M-MArk?!" "mummy I'm scared why won't you talk to me?" " you still love m-me right?" " oops I'm sorry mummy I-I-I didn't mean to talk." I frowned.

"I'm sorry sweetie" the girl says. The thing is her voice doesn't sound like mummy's? "Mummy......?" "Sweetie I'm soooo sorry to say but mummy's in a better place ok.?" I nod. "We are going to find you a better daddy and a new mummy ok?" She said. I simply nod my head 'yes'. She sighed. "Hon how old are you?" She asked. I saw a little hope in her eyes. Maybe she wanted me to talk. I thought.

No you can't talk.

But it looks like she wants me to talk?

No she will just hurt you like daddy did.

I gave up fighting with my brain and held up my hand to show 5 1/2. She sighed again. "Ok hon lets get you out of here." As she carried me out side I saw my brother in the back of a big car and my dad had his hands behind his back. He was being shoved in to a car. He looked around and when he saw me he gave me a evil smirk. "I PROMISE I WILL GET OUT ONE DAY AND I WILL FIND YOU MY LITTLE SLUT AND I WILL KILL YOU AND EVERY ONE CLOSE TO YOU!!!!!" He screamed.

I got really scared so I hid my head in the lady's neck. She runs a hand up and down my back as she puts me in a car seat.

** END OF FLASHBACK **

So that leaves you to where I am today. I'm 7 years old now. I live in an orphanage. I have been adopted 4 time. That would end in either me getting hurt or me blocking them out and being a pain. But I always get hurt. All I want is for someone to love me like my old mummy did. But I guess that will never happen. All I want is to be held, get hugs, get kisses, and most of all be loved.

I know now that my dad went to jail. My brother went to a mental institution. I have been to two orphanages so far. One in Homes Chapel and the other in London. The one in Homes Chapel wasn't very nice. In London it's nicer. But it could be better by a lot but its better then the one in Homes Chapel. In the one I'm in now is in the center of London. I have a room mate and her name is Kate.

"IZZY GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE FOR DINNER" Yea that's one of the older girls Natalia. She is like an older sister to me. So now I'm running down the stairs so I can get more than one piece of bread tonight. YES. I got three pieces of bread. After we all got food we sat down did our pray and listen to sister Jessabell. "Ok so tomorrow we have people adopting." We all clapped happily and then she continued. "They picked out some of the girls they would interview." "Wait so we all won't get interviewed." Asked a little three year old. "No not all of you. the people who are is... Abby, Jenna, Alisa, Linda, laura, Olivia, and Izzy" Ok so they were looking for kids in the 6-10 age group. I politely raise my hand. "Yes izzy?" "do we have to be interviewed?" "No I guess not" "I LOVE YOU" I ran up and hugged sister.

Later that night I was in my bed thinking. I wish I was like a normal kid and got toys and got to play outside. Ever since I was little I learned how to grow up. I wish I hadn't though. I miss playing with mum when dad wasn't home. UGHHHH I HATE MY LIFE. "GIRLS ITS 8 pm GO TO BED" After that I fell asleep. Wishing I didn't have to go through this pain and I would be loved.

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Authors Note

HEYYY sorry I haven't updated I'm just not good at this.... Tell me what u think. I'm gonna start on the next chapter soon... hope y'all like it

Ps MY BIRTHDAY IS SOON ITS 11/27 IM SO EXCITED BECAUSE 1D DAY IS 4 DAYS BEFORE AHHHHHH

Pss 1D comes in next chapter

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