HERMIONE
It was one of the bleakest, quietest nights I had ever spent. I noted that I didn’t feel tired or hungry or dirty, and though I’d found a moderately comfortable place to sit between the smooth, cool roots of the trees, I wasn’t inclined to sleep. Apparently, Draco wasn’t either. He sat where he had been, by the clock, gazing straight ahead, eyes unfocused. His tears finally dried, but as I watched him, I found myself wishing he would cry more. His stark, pale face without tears unsettled me.
I also had no inclination to leave the shelter of this willow. At all. Ever. Deep inside me, a reasonable little voice told me that was madness, but right at the moment, I liked this quiet. I liked the fact that my surroundings weren’t changing as fast as the flipping pages of a picture book. It was a relief, this monotony, this sameness—and if so much as one tiny spider crawled across the back of my hand, I would lose my mind.
I was still fighting to digest what I had seen.
It sat like a cold rock in my stomach, like faint nausea at the onset of being ill. I watched him as he sat there—watched the slight rise and fall of his shoulders as he breathed; watched his long lashes as he blinked slowly. I bit my lip. I said nothing.
The moment I first met Draco Malfoy, I had his character pegged: he was a selfish, egotistical, stubborn, arrogant, spoiled only child with a superiority complex coupled with a chip on his shoulder. Then, the day he first called me a Mudblood, I began to hate him. With every encounter, my opinion of him shrank until he was a cockroach in my eyes—cowardly, shallow and worthless.
I had never wondered if he was lonesome.
I had never wondered what it would be like to know that my mother was slightly afraid of my father. I had never considered how it would be to worship my father, yet be haunted by doubting his love. I had never asked myself if I could bear living in coldness and darkness and stone, the shadows of Death Eaters often flitting across the walls of my home, with the Dark Lord a frequent subject of discussion around the dinner table.
Yet I had looked that reality in the eye at least once a week since I was eleven years old. And those thoughts had never entered my mind.
Until tonight.
I wrapped my arms around my chest and leaned my head sideways against a root, glancing at Draco for the hundredth time—but then my gaze lingered, and a strange idea crossed the edges of my thoughts.
What if I had been the child of Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy?
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What the Room Requires
FanfictionHermione is the one who finds Draco weeping in the bathroom. He flees. She chases him into the Room of Requirement, and the room forces them to face their greatest fears together in order to find the door. (The original story by Alydia Rackham, firs...