Scares That Will Never Be Healed

Chapter 1

Many other teens have been bullied plenty of times but I've been bullied my whole life. Everywhere I go I get bullied, at school and at home. My older sister bull's me and some other assholes at school bully me as well .

I'm almost 18 and my birthday is on the 8th of September. The year was going fast and soon I'll leave home and find my own place to live away from this shit hole.

It was my next day at school in hell. As always I had to keep my head low and stay out of everyone's way. I walked down the hall trying to sneak past Kade. The "toughest" teen in school and with his other pales, Hayden and Keath. They follow Kade around like a bunch of puppies just so they can become the "toughest" teens in school.

They spotted me easily and grabbed me by my shirt. "Hey James, how's your boyfriend? I heard he hates you now that he found out that you like him." Keath snorted.

Those words hit my chest in shock and pain once they came out of his mouth. But I couldn't trust them how do I know if they are lying or not?

"LIARS! " I screamed at them with anger.

" If you don't believe us, why don't you see him tomorrow in the forest at 4:30 pm after school. "
Kade smirked.

I felt a lump go down my throat as I had a feeling that they were telling the truth. But I'm not letting my guard down just yet.

The next day I made my way down the forest. I don't know how I would find him but its worth a shot to find out if those assholes were lying to me. Maybe.... It was a trap...
I thought to myself. I shrugged it off and think what could possibly be worse then having a dark life to live.

Once I made my way deeper into the thick woods I was surprised to find Damen standing by the trees waiting for me. The guy I have loved and cared for was waiting for me...

My hands started to sweat as I got nervous. Taking closer steps he watched me with his bright blue eyes. He had a disgusted look on his face which made me even more nervous. I gave him a sad expression as I was finally in front of him. I looked down not baring to look at his disappointed face with my hair covering my eyes trying not to make eye contact.

He spoke with a frustrated voice. "Look kid, I'm not gay and I don't like you in any way. Liking the same gender is just disgusting! Your a freak of nature and I don't want to see or talk to you ever again!"
I didn't look at him but listened to him walk away with the leaves and twigs snapping under his feet. I waited till I couldn't hear his footsteps until he was no where to be seen then I dropped to the ground leaning on a tree with my heart being torn to shreds with his words stabbing me in the chest with my eyes burning with tears. His cruel words repeated in my head. 'Liking the same gender is disgusting! Your a freak of nature and i don't want to see or talk to you ever again!'

I lay on the ground, curled up in a ball with no other sound but sobbing with a pathetic shudder. Those word cut me deep. They will heal in the future but the scares will never leave my thoughts. Its like nailing a nail in a wall and when you pull it out you can't fix the hole that was left behind. Then I remembered I left my pocket knife in my bag for safe keeping. I got up and scuttled through my bag. Once I found my item I flipped it open and slowly carved the blade into my skin.

The stinging pain finished in 5 minutes then I went back to another deep cut into my arm. Once I was done I leaned back onto the tree. I took a deep breath as the stinging pain got me out of the thought of the my pain in my heart. It was so relaxing to not feel any pain but in my arm. I closed my eyes, relaxing my body and getting everything off my mind.

Until I remembered that I had to go to school. I didn't want to go to school tomorrow as I knew what was going to happen next...

The next day I was teased by the whole school. Saying I was gay and other hurtful things like...

"Hey you sick peace of shit just kill yourself, because you don't deserve to live! "

" Keep your d**ck in your pants dude. No one wants to be raped by you! "

" Suck my d**ck James! I know you'll love it! "

Everyone teased and pushed me the whole day and the ones who were "innocent" and didn't bully me, didn't even bother to help me... They walk past pretending that nothing was happening.

In class I was even being treated like shit by the teacher. He act like the other students didn't do anything to me as they throw stuff and spit paper balls at me. After class I was kicked to death by Kade, Keath and Hayden. Then when they were finished with me they left me alone as I cryed on the floor finding my ex crush walking past and telling me to grow some balls and get a life.

Then rage finally built in side my body with anger as I was sick and tired of being treated like crap by everyone especially by my "crush".

I pulled my pocket knife out of my pocket and tackled him to the wall pining him still while pointing the blade to his neck.