Scares That Will Never Be Healed

Chapter 10 ( LAST CHAPTER!!)

He faced away from me in bed as we slept and haven't sopke to me since. I thought back to what I said to him and felt bad. What kind of boyfriend am I?

A tear rolled down my cheek when I thought he would dump me and started to sob. Jake woke up by my crying and sat up. "James, whats wrong?" He said as he faced me while I had my back on him. Trying to hide my tears.

"Nothing..." I answered.

"Hey, its ok James. Whatever it is I'm here for you." He said as he hugged me from behind. I turned around to face him as I cried in his chest. He held me tight as he listened to me.

"I'm worried that I would lose you for what I said to you yesterday. I'm sorry....." I sobbed.

"No its ok. It was my fault for going to far. You were just making your choices with how comfortable you are in the relationship. I promise I'll go slower." He apologised to me. We fell asleep together hugging with samll tears hidden in our eyes.

The next morning we woke up happier then last night. He held my hand the whole way from school until we had to go to a different class. He hugged me and went to class before I entered my class room.

~Time skip~

Class almost ended and I scribbled the last notes down from on the bored but then I spotted a guy staring at me. He quickly looked awaky when I spoted him. He had dark brown hair and blue eyes.

Was he staring at me the whole time? And why was he staring at me? . The bell rang and I packed up my note books and left the room. I spent the rest of the day with Jake because that was the only class I didn't have with him. We did so many cute things together today and it made me feel more comfortable and happy with him. He held my hand under the desks in class and he hugged me everytime we sat down at lunch once we finished eating. Sometimes he kissed me secretly when there were no teachers around. The day couldn't get any better. Jake told me to meet him at the front gate after school so I made my way there when I finished my last class.

I happily made my way down there until... I saw two familiar men making out at the spot. I froze as my heart was torn out of my chest. My eyes grew wide as I couldn't believe what was happening. It was Jake and that guy in my first class. Jake stopped the kiss as he notice me.

"James, I can explain!"

Tears came out of my eyes again and rolled down my cheeks. Then I ran as fast as my legs could go. I could hear Jake calling out my name but I didn't stop. I cried as I ran down the street while it started to rain. I almost tripped but I kept running.

I thought I would never feel so much pain again. I thought he only loved me. He cheated on my...WHY! Arn't I good enough for him!? He gave me everything.
He stole my heart away...and I can't get it back.... I loved him....

I ran too our house and locked all the doors and windows before he came. I grabbed a knife, a chair and a noose I saved for myself if anything happened....I thought I would never use it....
I went done to the basment and set up the noose then I started cutting myself violently on my arms as the deep wounds spude out blood everywhere. I sat on the chair under the noose, thinking why this happened to me....Anger and depression came over me as I stood on the chair and slowly put the noose around my neck and said my last words.

"I loved you..." then kicked the chair away.......................................................................................... but before i fell Jake held me up so the noose wouldn't choke me. Surprised and confused I was, I was angery at him. I didn't even see him enter the room!

"I'M SORRY PLEASE DON'T DO THIS I LOVE YOU!" He cried....

"Let go of me.....You stole my heart and threw it away.....NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO LIVE FOR!"
I tried kicking at him and scratching him and even ripping his hair out but he still wouldn't let go.

"TAKE THE FUCKING NOOSE OFF RIGHT NOW JAMES!" He scraemed at me.
I froze as I was shocked to hear him swear and yell at me like that. I hesitated but took the noose off. He slid me down his body gently and landed on my feet. He hugged me tighter then he had ever bofore and cried on my sholder.

"WHAT THE FUCK BABE YOU SCARED ME!"
I didn't hug him back as I was still mad at him.

"GET THE HELLBOFF ME YOU JERK! YOU CHEETED ON ME AND YOU STILL CALL ME BABE!? I LOVED YOU AND CARED FOR YOU AND YOU THREW IT AWAY!" I screamed at him as I pushed him off me.

"LITEN TO ME JAMES, HE WAS MY EX BOYFRIEND AND HE WAS JELOUSE OF YOU AND HE FORCED HIMSELF ON MY IN FRONT OF YOU TO END OUR RELATIONSHIP THE DICK!"
He barked back. I was about to yell at him again but was interupted by him kissing me as he held my rist down against the wall. I struggled at but it was no use. I calmed down and sunck into the kiss then he pulled away. I slapped him across the face.

"I deserved that...." he said holding the red hand mark on his face. I kissed him back again for 5 minutes and pulled away.

"Stay with me, please I'm sorry!" He pleaded.

"It's ok Jake I'm still here."

He smiled at me.

"I love you."

~END♡