Finally let go

Chapter 1

*Picture is Jesy at 15* 

~Jesy P.O.V~

I wake up to my mom yelling at me,

"Jess get up you are going to be late" I hear her voice ring through my empty room. I used to have a good life. I had a room to myself a nice bed and nice clothes to wear. Now all that I have is a t-shirt that was to small for my older brother and a pair of baggy jeans with worn out converse. I put everything on and I grab a sweatshirt to cover up my new scars. I have to walk to school. I go downstairs and see my mom making breakfast for my older brother. He glares at me and I just walk out the door.

"Jess get back in here and clean up your brothers dishes" I hear my mom slur behind me. I turn around and see her and my brother staring at me. I put down my backpack and walk into the kitchen and I start too clean my brother dishes. My mom goes upstairs and I feel my brothers presence behind me.

"Hey little sis" He says and I can tell he is smirking as he says it.  He grabs my arm and spins me around pressing me against the counter. He takes out his pocket knife and lifts up my shirt to reveal all of my bruises and cuts. He slowly drags the knife against what used to be my perfectly soft skin. I bit my lip and try not to let the tears slip from my eyes. After he makes  5 deep marks, I can feel the blood dripping down my stomach. He just laughs at me and shoves me against the counter and I can a bruise start to form on my lower back. I see him walk away and I slowly let a single tear fall down my cheek.  I finish washing the plate and I walk out the door. I walk down the street, and I see my brothers car pass me and he runs through a puddle soaking me head to toe. 

I hear his friends laughing as the car speeds away. I walk up the sidewalk to the doors of the hellhole I call school. I am walking down the hallway to my locker and I get pressed against the lockers by a tall muscled body. Right away I know who it is. 

"Cody" I mumble under my breath.  He presses my back against the cold hard lockers. I can hear his friends laughing at me while he holds me still and his friends punch my stomach breaking open the scabs that have started to heal from what they did last week. After his friends back away, I hear one of them say something but it's mumbled because I'm about to pass out from lack of blood. The room is spinning and I can't see straight. I fall on the floor and feel myself being picked up by someone but I can't remember what happened after that because I lost consciousness. 

I wake up in the nurses office. I'm in here a lot, though its a good thing she's so nice especially to me. 

"Hi Mrs.Raewald" I say as I slowly sit up. I feel bandages around my stomach and ice on top of them. 

"This wasn't necessary" I tell her. She just looks at me and smiles

"Oh yes it was dear but since you seem fine I will take your vitals then you can go to class ok?"

"Okay whatever you say. Oh wait who took me in here" I ask her 

"I can't say but i'm sure you will find out soon enough, they do take you in here every time this happens" She says happily as she laughs lightly and finishes up with my vitals.

"Well that's all dear, and change those bandages tonight okay?" She says handing me a pass to class.

"I will bye Mrs.R have a good day." I wave to her as I leave with my book bag on my shoulder. I walk to my locker and put my stuff away and get my books for English. I walk down the hall and I feel eyes on me, I turn around and see Cody staring at me. I walk faster and try to become invisible. I arrive at my class and slowly open the door. All eyes turn to me and the teacher stops talking. I keep my head down and hand him the pass walking to my seat. I sit down and he continues talking. 

*15 minutes later*

I'm taking notes when a folded piece of paper lands on my desk. I slowly open it and read what's inside slowly. 

"You're such a fag, go kill yourself already, every one knows you want to. Just do it already.

Love every one"

A tear rolls down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away. The bell rings and I jump out of my seat grabbing my stuff, almost running out of the room. I round the corner and run into a group of jocks. They push me on the ground and start laughing at me. I pick up my stuff and just walk around them with my eyes on the ground. I find my locker and open it shoving my english stuff in my bag for homework. I hear someone lean agaisnt the locker next to mine.

"Did you get the note?" She asks laughing with her bimbo squad, she being the most popular girl in school. Ashley Karliah.

"Yes." I say plainly. I don't look at her at all. 

"You really should do it you know, you don't deserve to be here. Oh i'm sorry are you gonna cry" She laughs and pushes my locker door hitting my face. I grab my bag and slam my locker running out the front door. Tear rolling down my face.