Falling Autumn

Music

The bus was always a very silent ride. I mean there would be conversations all around me. Many were about homework and after school plans. Its at times like these that i question 90's high school movies on a whole personal level. I wonder if life really was like that.

With the glamorous blond cheerleaders that were always tall and had perky breasts, I question the white boy jock that always lives in a nice two story house in the woods and holds parties EVERY Friday.

As I would look out from the window into the blurred houses and laughing street people I would question why my life hadn't been in a movie yet. I would question why my pain and hardship wasn't air brush worthy. Although my anxiety was my enemy and my fear of silence always went with my shadow... he was always there by my side to soothe me. His smile and his eyes always kept me calm.

Belen: Oh my gosh why do you do this can't you see I'm trying to make a movie in my head?

Quinn:Pardon me mam truly that is a film I would rate five stars *winks*

He laughed
He always laughed
His Addams Apple would pop out on his long neck because everytime he laughed his head would bob backwards
and his jaw bones would be as visible as possible.
His teeth would peak out especially his fangs.
God.

He laughs like god.

Quinn: Would I be an actor in your movie Belen?

Belen: No

Quinn: What the squash why?!!

Belen: *chuckles* you wouldn't want to be in a horror film Quincy.

Quinn: Says who?, I live a living American Horror story with Emma everyday...

Belen: Yeah well that's your fault.

Quinn:... Yeah well I mean

Belen: You're dating a slut Quinn

Quinn: sad but true

Belen: Quinn you've caught her with a college guy before c'mon (irritated)

Quinn: She keeps me warm

Belen: no she's a vampire

Quinn: How so mademoiselle Belen?

Belen: First of all she sucks hard on your neck *points at purple hickey on the side of his neck*

Quinn: You wanna know what else she sucks hard o-

Belen: no

Quinn:...*suppressing smile*..

Belen: Oh god no

Quinn: My money

Belen: I'm so fucking done with you!

Quinn: Oh baby yes

Belen: OMG what?!

Quinn: *Stares at bus window*

Belen: Quinn

Quinn: *looks into your eyes* I-

Belen: *blood rushing* Quinn?

Quinn: *cups face and gets closer to yours*

Belen: *closes eyes and holds breath*

Quinn: I..i-

Belen: *breathes gently*

Quinn: I would be the Brad Pitt of your movies.

Belen: *blushes hard* What the hell you creep why did you have to do that?!!! Moves towards bus window.

As I moved away I felt the leathery material that the school bus seats were made of. The air was always fairly cold.

Staring out the window for some seconds always makes it feel even colder.

Quinn was my best friend
I loved Quinn more than anyone besides a select few of my family members.

Quinn had been my friend since the beginning of my existence. Since I could at least keep a thought in my head I suppose.

Quinn: Belen I'm sorry I was just playing

Belen: *honestly very hurt* It's fine

Quinn: If you want I can kiss you.

Belen: *turns around to look at Quinn's green eyes staring into hers*

Quinn: I've always wanted to..*leans in*

Belen: If you come an inch closer to me I will pepper spray you!

Quinn: There is my girl! I knew that you'd forget and move on if I did something stupid like that!

Stupid

I really wanted that kiss, his pink gorgeous lips on mine and his hands running through my hair like he did with Emma.

I love Quinn

Quinn: *laughs while staring at phone*
And it was called yellow..

Belen: What has made you quote Coldplay?

Quinn: I just broke up with Emma

Belen:...

Quinn: *smiles and shows me his messages*

Texts

Quinn: Hey babe

Emma: Babe get me vanilla caramel macchiato, I want a tall☕️.

Quinn: I'm not going to walk to Starbucks in this freezing weather for you again.

Emma: Fine I have Edward to do it for me then.😌

Quinn: Yes you do because you certainly don't have me.

Emma: yes I do!

Quinn: Emma I'm breaking up with you

Emma: What the fuck I was just joking damn

Quinn: I'm serious

Emma: Baby you can't be serious

Quinn: Oh I am very serious.. Well bye✌️

Emma: Quinn baby please I'm sorry no!!

Quinn: What? You have Edward anyway?
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Seeing those messages gave me the shivers. He'd done this before we had gotten on the bus. He chose to ride the bus with me and pretended he was still with Emma.

He showed me and he looked so proud

His sandy hair suddenly seemed real
His eyes
His collar bones

His hands that warded off my nightmares

I had a chance

To be with him

The one who's music to my being

The one that laughs like god.