do you want to know what I always do?
well, me. I always disrupt myself, I watch animes,movies,hang out with friends, read watpad stories just to have fun and laugh and then later on I will get totally sad without reason.
I can't understand myself, I don't even know what I want.
I want comfort but I am a bitch who drive away the people who give their care and concerns for me.
I feel like I have no use at all.
I feel wreck. I feel sad. I'm hurting and I don't even know why the hell is wrong with me.
I've hurt a lot of peoples feelings, I am selfish. I can't get out of my comfort zone cause I'm afraid.
I'm afraid to be hurt, to get use to love which is temporary.
I am afraid that what if I won't get my life together.
I am afraid that I might become a failure to myself but most especially to my family.
I am someone who is really weak and fragile who can't take the courage to face the things that I want in life.
I don't know I don't feel love at all.
I'm hurting and nobody knows.
I fake smiles.
I stop crying.
I can't tell anyone what I'm feeling and my heart my heart is breaking.
