For The Road

When I Try To Fix It, I End Up Here.

The next day, I didn't wake up until 2. I was thinking about a lot of stuff, mainly Issa. With Issa, my mind is telling me he had better intentions but my heart isn't. I want to believe Issa wanted me for better reasons but I can't get down to it. Being hurt so many times in the past, my trust is LONG gone. I just don't know whatever to think about anyone. My mom came knocking on the door.

Mom: baby, if you want, you can go see your dad.

I literally bounced up. I missed my daddy. He's in jail. For what.? Because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. Some dude got shot and everyone blamed it on my daddy so he got 10 years. He's served 8. I threw on some jogging pants and my Uggs. I grabbed my car keys and went outside. I got in my car and started driving. I knew exactly where to go to. I finally arrived at the Jailhouse. I parked my car in the " Visiting " section. I walked inside, putting my keys in my side bag. I had to walk up to a woman at the front desk.

Woman: name.?

Jasmine: Anthony Moore.

Woman: please go to the first room on your right and he'll be waiting for you.

I nodded and walked to the room. There he is, my daddy. I immediately ran up to him and gave him a huge hug. I started crying in the process. I haven't seen him in so long. We both sat at a table. I wiped my eyes.

Dad: I've missed you baby girl.

Jasmine: I missed you too.

Dad: how have you and your mom been.?

Jasmine: I've been different lately honestly. As for her, she's starting to date again.

Dad: different how.?

Jasmine: * sigh * I've started smoking weed.

Dad: why.?

Jasmine: because considering my only other sibling is in college, I have no one. And mom refuses to let me see Kayla.

Dad: Kayla is your 5 your old little sister, why wouldn't she let you see her.?

Jasmine: * tears start falling * Because 2 years ago, she started having bag nightmares. Mom thought they were regular nightmares. Then they started getting severe. She took her to a doctor, who then said she needed to be taking into a children's hospital, basically because they thought she was going crazy. I really want to go see her but mom won't tell me where the place is.

Dad: is it in Atlanta.

Jasmine: I believe so.

Dad: then Google some places and call in and see they have her. But baby, smoking isn't going to help.

Jasmine: * crying * I try to tell myself that but I can't. I haven't even been in a good relationship in forever and every guy I actually catch feelings for screws me over and leaves me here feeling dumb. I want to love again Dad, I want to know what its like to be the girl who can actually be in love. But I have so much built up hate and regret that its hard.

My dad walked over to me and sat next to me. He pulled me into a hug, which led to me crying on his shirt.

Dad: Baby girl, I promise everything will get better. You just have to start off small and work your way up there. Promise me you'll stay strong for me.? For Kayla.?

I nodded my head.

Guard: times up.

I stood up with him. I gave him one last hug.

Dad: see you next time kid.

Jasmine: you too Dad.

Then the guard took him away. I walked back outside. I stopped the lady at the front desk.