i met you when we were kids.
i remember seeing you for the first time and thinking how cute you were.
i remember trying to catch your attention as the years gone by.
i remember being your rebound when the girl you were in love with in 6th grade would break up with you.
i remember crying myself to sleep night after night because i just wanted to be loved by you.
i remember you saying there are too many girls but i didn't make the cut of getting the chance to be with you.
i remember the months that went by when we didn't even look at each other because you found another girl to love who wasn't me.
i remember you coming back to me out of the blue, only to leave like every other time.
i remember sleepless nights we both had because you would make mistakes with her and she would leave you.
i remember the first time i made several nicks in my skin because i was on the phone with you as you cried to me because you really messed up this time.
i remember feeling the strings in my heart break because you told me i wasn't good enough.
i remember when she said she had enough and left for good but you still wanted things to work.
i remember my heart beginning to heal when you asked me out and said you mean it.
i remember the screams i let out into my pillow when i found out you told her you miss her and don't love me.
i remember staying with you through every moment you hurt me and we both knew it.
but now that you are mine, all i can do is hope to God that the past doesn't repeat because i know damn well i won't survive.
