Soulfinder!

'Bad' News

No-one's POV...
Everyone was sat in Karla and Saul's front room chatting, all chatting about anything that has been happening lately or anything they forgot to mention or anything that is due to happen.

As tomorrow morning the Lynch's, Yves and Phoenix were going back to LA and Crystal, Xavier, Zed and Sky were going back to New York.

"I met my soulfinder yesterday" Rydel announced everyone was happy for her and all announced they want to meet him "calm down guys, right his name is Dillon he's from Philly and he's obviously my age and he's gorgeous but sort of a jerk" Rydel said "and he doesn't know he's a savant" she added letting out a defeated and upset sigh.

Zed threw his arm around Sky smiling at the memory of meeting Sky "at least he didn't attack you with shopping bags" he said everyone laughed "well maybe cause she didn't grab him and tell 'you're mine forever, you are never leaving me ever' so I had the right to hit you" Sky said Zed laughed "I wasn't that's creep" Sky just stared at him in disbelief.

"Can anyone up that news?" Riker asked the family "I might be able to" Yves announce Phoenix hit him, he gave her a confused looked then shook his head looking at everyone else "Phoenix and I are expecting our own little Einstein" he announce and everyone got up to shower them in hugs and 'congratulations'.

Phoenix's POV..
I can't believe Yves has just told everyone, I look at Diamond who looked disappointed but she still has a smile, everyone came over to hug me, everyone was so happy about the news..except me.

After I hugged them all, I decided to go upstairs. I need to just get a little breather to relax and think it through. I sat on the bed in Yves' old room, I wanted to just cry again, since I found out I was pregnant that's all I did cry, if I'm being honest I'm not sure if I want a child.

I heard the door close and I look up to see all the girls minus Diamond, Misty, Angel, Summer, Karla and Stormie. Yves was with them. I look at them all, Sky hugs me "hey why are you crying you are carrying a tiny little geek inside of you" Yves laughed I didn't know how to tell all the girls never mind Yves that I didn't want this 'tiny little geek'

I sigh and look down at my feet "that's the problem" I mumble "what's that supposed to mean?" Yves asks I look at him I see betrayal, hurt, upset and angry in his face, tears began to fall again I had just managed to stop them "I can't do this.." I say "do what, Phee?" Margot asks "be a mum" I practically whisper.

Yves come over to me "Phoenix, what are you talking about you will be the best mum in the world and I.." I had to cut him off "what if it's a Corrigan thing?" I ask him he was so confused "I don't want to leave this child like my mum did me so young" I confess, my mum had died of cancer when I was little and I had to watch her die day by day, my only memories of my mother was when she was so weak, just before she died.

Yves rubbed my back "you mother was sick, and you were in a bad place so she wasn't allowed to go to the hospital Phoenix, if I do get cancer and I hope you don't then you will have the best treatment even if I have to keep them every single million I have in my bank, you are strong Phee there's no way you will leave our child" he told me but he can't promise nothing say I won't get ill not just cancer maybe another illness plus if it was cancer some still don't have cures and chemotherapy doesn't always work.

Sky kneeled down in front of me so she could see my face "Phoenix, look it's only natural to be scared about becoming a mum I think every parent has that in their mind at least once but you can only be the best you can be nobody is expecting you to know what to do or how to handle every situation you live and you learn, you don't have to worry about history repeating itself that's unlikely and if it does, touch wood it doesn't" she touch the cabinet by the bed then placed her hand back on my knee "but if it does happen again, then your child will be raised learning all about his or her brave mother and grandmother, and he or she will have all of us and so do you, you aren't in this alone"

Nobody understands what was going through my head, I didn't want to get rid of the baby because of how happy Yves was about being a father but I couldn't shake the fear of leaving my child like my mum had left me but nobody understood, it was like they aren't listen to me. I was in this pregnancy alone they might be here but I had the thing inside of me.

Everyone was super happy that the next generation in the Benedict blood line was beginning, minus the person carrying it. Wasn't a mother supposed to be excited about being a parents shopping for baby stuff, picking out names stuff for the nursery, talking all about babies. What if I die in labour then my child will have no memories at all about me?!

I smile at everyone-a fake smile but they smiled back so I guess it looks realistic, I've had plenty of practice with fake smiles "yeah sorry I'm just worrying, over nothing I guess I'll be fine" I say "see, you worry too much I think Yves plus pregnancy hormones are bad on you" Crystal said I fake laugh trying to make it sound realistic as I nod "they are terrible" I mean it that what I felt about this thing growing inside of me but I love Yves with all my heart, I will have to put on a brave face and deal with the problem for him.