suicide

Raped

School went by I was in my room sitting on my bed when I heard someone talking "hey man its good to see you how have you been?" I heard my dad say "I've been good" the man said wait I know him that's Richard one of my dads best friends he used to come over a lot. I walked down stairs to get me something to drink "hi Alex" he said to me I just ignored him and tried to walk away but he grabbed my wrist "answer me when I'm talking to you little bitch" he said as he dragged me to my dads room."what are you doing?" I said as I started to cry "I'm gonna teach you some manners" he said as he threw me on my dads bed and tied my hands and feet to the posts "please let me go I won't do it again please" I said as tears fall down my cheeks, he ignored me and started to undress himself and then he did the same to me. I was tied on the bed in my bra and underwear, as he climbed on top of me he started kissing my neck down to my boobs "please stop" I said trying to get him off me but I couldn't move my hands or feet. He went down to my stomach and stopped to look at me "I'm gonna make you feel good" he said with a smirk on his face and with that he ripped off my bra and underwear, he trusted into me I screamed in pain "ahhhh get off me that hurts!please", he didn't say anything he just kept thrusting into me faster and harder. After about 10 minutes he came in me then got off and untied me "here are you clothes you little whore" as he said that I curled up in a ball and cried. I got up and put my clothes on which were a pair of shorts and a tank top. I felt blood and come run down my leg as I walked to my room I fell on my floor and cried for what felt like hours I got up and ran into my bathroom "I'm done" I repeated to myself as I got a bottle of sleeping pills I couldn't open the bottle so I threw it at the wall and it broke."what the fuck do you think you're doing" my dad said as I tried to pick them up but instead he picked my up by my hair "after all I have done for you you try to kill yourself, I buy you clothes and, food but that still isn't enough is it you little bitch"he said as he threw me on my bed punching and slapping me. after a few hits he stormed out of my room and left me crying in pain "why does life have to be so hard" I thought to myself as I blacked out.