He's Psychopathic

Chapter 18

Cassidy's P.O.V

Today was the day. The day all the joy in my life disappear. The day I lost my backbone. The day I became a different person. Once again I woke up by myself. I've been laying in bed for at least two hours just looking. I don't know what I'm looking for,I'm just looking. I decided that it's time I went downstairs to get something to eat. I got out of bed and dragged myself out if the room. Passing by I heard sobbing and when I got to my brother's door I heard moaning. It doesn't even suprise me. That's his way of getting over his problem. Sex.  I scurried downstairs and opened the fridge. It was half empty. I decided that I'll have ice cream instead and when I opened the freezer,there wasn't any ice cream .

"Just prefect.It's a prefect day." I mumbled. I went back up and grabbed a hoodie and left. I walk all the way to the cemetery. I was dripping sweat and I'm thirsty. But if this is what it takes to see my father then to hell with it illr do it. I walked and sat in front of his grave and just stared at it. I didn't know what to say ,somewhere deep inside I was expecting him to say something first. He was always a conversation starter. He was very social. I remembered when I was this timid,naive little girl. And he'd always push me and talk me into making friends. And I'd always promise that tomorrow I'll make some friends. And I didnt,I would just sit by myself and do nothing. Just anticipated to get back home to take to my Daddy. He was my friend back then. I sighed has a tear rolled down my face.

"Hey dad. How you doing?" I asked.  I looked around at the empty cemetery and sighed.

"I haven't been very good since you left. I think you might have known but I'm just gonna tell you anyways. I started drinking and maybe just one time I did drugs. Or maybe two. I don't know who's counting ? I got ill-mannered and began to skip classes .But then mom got depressed,Jason was being a total ass and you...y-you were gone and I noticed .That someone had to get the family back together. You were our glue dad. You got us to stick together and then you left. You left dad. Why won't you come back ? We need you. I need you. I've changed some of my bad ways in realization to what I've become. I changed and today," I sighed.

"It just bring back everything memory that I tried very hard to bury and replaced it with a smile. And today it's all back.My thoughts pushing me to do things I don't want to do. But I can't help myself. And this is your fault. Why did you have to leave ? ". I looked at the grave and my eyes felt clouded.

"Why ?!?! " I screamed,"Why did you leave? Why would you do that ? How could you leave me like this ? How could leave us like this ? Why?". I hit the grave with my hands and I knew it was a bad idea but I'm really angry. I'd probably regret this later.  I lay right in front of the grave and just looked at it. 

"Why dad ? Why.?" I asked. 

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Kaleb's P.O.V

I was in the middle of this movie that I didn't know the name of when there was a knocking on the door. I sighed and I walked to the door briskly and opened the door. I saw Cassidy. But the Cassidy I knew. She looked like shit. Her eyes were all puffy and her clothes were dirty and I can't even start on her hair. I didn't ask anything I just hugged her. What would I even ask on the first place. She began to cry again and shirt was getting wet. I rub her back and her hair trying to comfort her . She looked at me and smiled and walked past me.
Well yeah. Go in because I invited you in.

I closed the door behind me and looked around for her. She was in my bed. I snorted. When I wanted her in my bed it wasn't like this. She was much more sexier. But what is really wrong with her though ? I sat on the bed beside her and she was still crying.

"Whats wrong with you.?" I asked quietly. This is very awkward.

"The world is wrong with me Kaleb. Life isn't fair and it's really showing me that it isnt." She answered between sobs.

"Want to talk about it?" I asked. It was really breaking my heart to see her smiling like that. It reminded me of my mother when she'd cry after a beating. Her brown eyes looked dilated and dull. Just had Cassidy is looking now. I looked away and took a deep a breath.

"Today is just a dull day.I lost someone very close to me on this day."

"Oh my condolences." I say unsure. I don't know what to say in a situation like this.  I haven't experienced this before.  I sighed.

"Hmmm. It was my dad. He was my friend. My only friend. He was my everything and he died. He died in a car crash. He risks his life to save a girl. She was crossing the street and he didn't see her it was too late to stop so he swerved and it another car and he died.  He saved her a little girl's life and that only had his little girl's heart broken and life over.  I knew what he did was heroic and brave but it was also ruthless.. I hurted me that I lost my father,my friend and my world.  All to a little girl.  I did meet the girl he saved. And for a few years I resented her. But why Kaleb ? Why is life so unfair." She was sobbing so loud when she finished.  I tear rolled down my face but I quickly wiped it. Boys don't cry. I couldn't help it and another rolled down. I hugged her and cry along with her.

"I'm sorry to just break down on you like that Kaleb. I just needed someone to talk to."

"He didn't leave you Cassidy. What he did was very good . He saved a life. It showed that he was a very good man and I can imagined how it felt to lose you love because of someone else, but you just have to accept the fact that he did a good deed with his last breath on earth. You have to forgive him Cassidy. You have to let him go and stop holding grudges."

"What do you mean by you can imagine losing someone because of another person?"

"My mother.  She's in prison. Her boyfriend used to beat her everyday single time he feels like it. And one day she got tired of it and fight back. She killed him but his family members came back for revenge and it was just all messy. And she endend up in prison. And it isn't fair but I've come to accept it.  There's nothing I cn do but accept it and that's what I did. "

"Oh I'm sorry to hear that though. So do you visit her?" She asks.

"No. I can't"

"Why not ?

"I'm not allowed."

"Oh okay. "

"You know you have the most beautiful eyes . Your the second person I know with eyes like that"

"Aww thanks Kaleb." She says and hugs me.  I just looked at her and she saw I wasn't hugging back she hugged me tighter.  I chuckled and hugged back.

"Now get off me you stink.  Go take a shower." I say to her and she mumbled something and I only heard fuck you .