I dragged myself out of bed. Whoever is ay my door is going to get a earful.
I yanked open my door a glare on my face as I looked at my best friend Aubree.
"Whats got you here so bright and early" I grumbled as I continued to glare at her.
"Well someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed" she smirked as she walked into my room and sat at the end of bed.
"Hangover duh Aubree. We were at a party last night..." I replied as I looked at her dumbfounded.
"Well Important news tops hangover so sit your grumpy ass down and listen" she patted my bed.
I walked over and fell onto my bed.
"Talk bitch so I can get back to sleep" I said closing my eyes.
"Well last night at the party I was talking to a lot of people and I found something out" she held back a huge grin as she spoke.
"well spit it out" I said as I looked at her.
"CHRIS LIKES YOU!!!!!!!" she squealed as she looked at me. Obviously happy with telling me.
"WHAT!! NO NO NO HE CANT LIKE ME" I yelled and then winced as my head pounded from all the yelling.
"LILY! WHY IS IT SO BAD! YOU HAVE TO FORGET THE PAST" Aubree rose to her feet as she scolded me.
So your probably wondering what happened.
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Aboyt a year ago I was in a very serious relationship.
I was sure he was the one.
We spent every second together.
He kissed me every second he could.
He went out of his was to make sure I was always happy.
He said we would get married one day.
I felt like my life was complete.
Aiden was two years older then me.
When he turned 18 he signed up for the army.
Soon after that we found out he was being deployed.
I begged him not to go. As soon as I found out I cried and held onto the man I loved.
He promised that I was the one, he said as soon as he came home he would marry me.
I spent every last second with him. When it came time for him to leave I tried to keep it together.
I gave him a necklace with a locket thay had a picture of us kissing. He put it on immediately.
It was now time to watch the guy I love leave for war. He promised to write.
He said he loved me and would be back to make me his forever.
We kissed not knowing it would be the last.
He wrote me a lot saying he loved me and missed me.
A couple mouths into his tour I received a letter.
Aidens chopper had been shot down and he was currently missing in action.
The day I received that letter my heart was torn out of my chest.
I refused ro leave my room. I refused to eat or sleep.
I sat by the phone for weeks waiting for a call to tell me he was okay.
I needed to know that he was going to come back to me and hold me in his arms and kiss me.
One day there was a knock on the door. As usual mother answered the door.
She walked into my room her eyes red as tears fell from them.
I begged for her to tell me he was okay.
She didn't say anything she just brought me down to the livingroom where a man in uniform sat on the couch a sullen look on his face.
He stood infront of me as he delivered the heart shattering news.
They had found his body but it was too late he was dead when they found him.
The officer held out the locket I gave Aiden.
I took it into my hands and broke down crying. I screamed at the world.
Why did they take him from me.
I cried knowing I would never see him again.
He would never hold me again.
He would never kiss my lips with so much love.
I would never see him smile.
Most importantly We would never spend forever with eachother like we promised.
He was gone.
I laid on the ground lifeless.
My life is over.
I cant continue without him.
A couple weeks later I was still in my room.
I hadn't moved since I found out.
Today was Aidens funeral.
It took all my energy to go.
I sat there looking at his coffin with an American flag and rosses laid ontop.
I looked at the box that held the boy I was madly in love with.
I didnt cry.
I was numb.
I had no emotion for months.
Not sadness or happiness.
All I felt was empty. I was nothing.
I eventually started living again but it was hard.
I still cry most days.
My heart is still broken and I'm afraid it will never be fixed.
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Tears poured down my face as I recall what happened.
" its not that easy to forget Aubree. I loved him so much and he was ripped away from me!" I sobbed as my friend pulled me into a comforting hug.
"Im sorry lil. I know you loved him. I know he loves you and he would hate to see you so heartbroken. All he ever wanted was for you to be happy. promise me. promise him that one day you will fall in love with someone" Aubree pleaded.
I knew she only wanted for me to be happy.
I also knew every word she spoke was true. I knew one day I would have to move on and love again. But it's still to soon.
"I promise" I whisper not only to Aubree but to Aiden.
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okay I couldn't sleep and I had this idea and its almost 2 AM.
I love and hate this chapter for the same reason. its an emotional chapter.
I hope you like it!!!
♡♡♥♥lola
