Excited for christmas but I wish for one single thing that won't come true.... -smile fades a little- He'll just make excuses... -smiles fully- maybe I'm wrong... I hope I am.... I'll call him tonight and ask him if he can come see me for christmas and if not for christmas then for my birthday.... -smile fades more- if he asks why I can't come see him i'll tell him that it would mean more if he'd come see me instead.... we'll see I guess.... -sighs and lays down cuddling a pillow-
