Always you

1. Feelings

Camila PoV:

"What was that Lauren" I watched her turn around and leave me again. I couldn't handle the guilt appear inside me again, when having to watch the disappointment grow within her and cause an appearance of a powerful frown that would bring me to the floor any other day but not today due to my stubbornness and my need to not back down. Lauren was mad at me because of my continuous cycle of keeping things from her. Shes noticed how I'm blocking her out making new friends and trying to be as far away from her as possible, with good reason on my behalf but there's no way she could see it like that. So for that reason I'm thankful she took the initiative to leave first. But I still longed for her presence. I longed for the courage to explain to her my feelings to why I do this. I mean what normal person keeps secrets from their best friend. Well me of course as I'm not the stereotypical normal person. I'm gay. At least I know I like Lauren. Well I know I want Lauren. Of course I can't tell her that. Why you might ask, well because having Lauren as my best friend means much more then not having her at all!