I want out. I want to exit this torturous life of mine. I try and find ways to escape but I always find myself crawling back into his arms, the arms that will never hold me tight.
I want him to hug me. I want him to kiss me. I want to be wrapped up in his arms under a blanket, in his oversized hoodies on a cold snowy day. I want him to whisper in my ear, "You are my everything..."
I am lonely. I have no actual social life. I didn't want to go date anyone because I wanted to be loyal to him and only him. It would be true betrayal if I let him go. I will wait for him. I could still wait for him, even if I know he will never come. Why? Why have I become so needy? I need him and I want him to need me.
I stare up at the empty ceiling, wishing that–
"Just one day, if I can be with you. Just one day, if I can hold your hands. Just one day... If only we can be together."
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FANGIRL ; KTH
Fanfiction"너를 사랑했고, 지금도 사랑해. 그 무엇도 이걸 바꿀수는 없을거야." "I loved you, and I still do. I don't think anything will change that." From the eyes of a fangirl. [edited]
