thoughts

once again

once again,
those mistakes i made,
those mistakes that i wanted to
distance myself from,
those mistakes that i knew
i'd regret of doing,

happen today.

and it ain't nobody,
but me who did it.

just like a deja vu,
i feel terribly bad
horribly remorse
tremendously ashamed
of my own self
again!

what am i doing?!
why do i keep on repeating
the same shit
over and over again?
am i a fool?

i just, um
i hate myself,
yes hate it.