Is Love A Strong Word? || MGK EDITING !

7

I woke up in the same spot facing Colson with his arms around me.

He looked so cute when he was sleeping. I kept admiring his complexion, he was just so memorizing. I can't believe he's in my bed, laying with me. I felt like a teenager that was sneaking someone in the house, butterflies came back to my stomach. Once again like earlier, he just was my escape from everything. He shifted and snapped me out of my thoughts and I rested my head on his chest to act like I was sleeping again.

"Baby wake up." He softly shook me.

I laid there for a couple minutes to pretend that I was sleeping before waking up.

"Oh gosh. It's morning already babe." I yawned as I stretched, looking around the room before getting out of bed.

"So I'm guessing we take a shower next?" he playfully joked around with me. I can tell he wanted me to get me out the depressed type of mood.

I pushed him back onto the bed to make him shut up. I grabbed my fuzzy slippers and saw my phone notifications were going off like crazy, so I grabbed my phone and checked them.

I had so many Facebook notifications it was all about Jessica. Colson looked at me and knew I was upset. I quickly looked away from him trying not to make eye contact to show I was upset about anything.

"What's wrong?" He asked, coming closer to me as he slightly rested his hand upon mine.

"Nothing." I answered back in a stern tone.

Why can't all of this be over. I just want to fast forward to forget about all of this. I can't take this pain. It's killing me. I don't like this feeling. I silently thought to myself. I sat there in my thoughts just hanging my head down.

"Aubree? Is it Jessi-?"

"No. Just leave me al-"

I just got up and walked quickly to the bathroom with him right on my every step. Tears started to stream down my face as I locked myself in the bathroom.

"Come out please." he started to pound on the door.

I sat there on the floor with tears filled in my eyes. My heart started to ache, my head pounded furiously. The pounds on the door started to slowly fade away after awhile. Time seemed to slow. Things started to seem to be a haze. I closed my eyes and sat and lost myself in my thoughts it feels everything inside me is dying. My inner demons seemed to take control of me as I ponder in my thoughts.

I was snapped out of them when the heavy beating continues ferociously.

I pulled myself together before stepping out of the bathroom. Colson stood there in utter shock as i walked, pulling his arm to follow behind me. We sat on the couch and both just sat there in silence staring at each other.

"So are you ok-"

"I want to go on tour with you. I feel this would be a great exper-" I was tackled into a huge hug and squeezed tightly.

Colson picked me up and spun me around in circles making me dizzy.

"You really are serious about this?" He screamed in my ear.

"Yes." i smiled at him.

He finally put me down and just still continue to hug me tightly and started to kiss me all over my face and plant small kisses on my forehead. He was filled with so much joy.

I can't believe I really told him i wanted to go with him. I thought to myself.

he planted a delicate kiss upon my lips. I was shocked about the kiss so I withdrew the kiss, and stared at him connecting with his bright blue eyes. but I quickly went back into the kiss and kissed him back. At first the kiss was small but the speed of kiss grew bigger and intense. He started touching me softly down to my hips, rubbing his hands over my back. Chills were sent down my spine, wrapping my legs around his waist and my fingers made their way in his hair slightly tugging on the back of his hair. 

Our kiss broke as Colson worked to unclasp my bra under my shirt. I jumped off of him pushing him back on the couch taking control, I straddled him pulling off his shirt as he slipped off mines. We threw our clothes on the floor besides us.

This was the most enduring moment i have ever had so far. I didn't want to stop, emotions started to fill me.

I slightly got off of him and sat on the side of him. He scooted closer to me and rested his hand upon my shoulder.

"Did I do anything wrong?" he asked shakily.

I don't know why i just stopped like that. I wanted to keep going but I just couldn't go on any further. I just sat there with a guilty conscience. for what reason?  I couldn't even tell him or even answer myself.

He came closer to me and gently became to kiss on my neck.

"I want you and only you. If you make me wait then it's okay but I know I want this." He whispered in my ear and planted soft kisses on my earlobe down to my neck.

He sent chills down my spine with his seductive voice. FUCK! I want him so bad but I just can't go on.

"Uh. I have to go shower." I hurried and grabbed my shirt walking to the shower quickly.

There was still something he didn't know and I want to tell him but then again I just don't want to.