What If (Liam Payne) {After plot twist} (HIATUS)

Seven

Warning: this chapter is going to be ridiculously long. I don't know if you'll like the length or not. I just thought I'd upload a long chapter since I didn't upload in 3 days. And idk. Let me know :)
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Tessa's POV

I turned and tossed in bed for what seemed like hours which was actually only one hour. Finally, I stared at the dark ceiling waiting for my alarm clock at 6:30. For the first time, I can say I'm actually proud of myself. I stood in my ground against Harry and didn't even regret it. I won't let him control me or my life anymore. I feel numb towards him now. Like he wasn't my boyfriend, like I didn't love him, like he doesn't even exist. I'm too hurt to forgive him this time. He didn't even make any effort so that I can think of forgiving him. He's not worthy of my thoughts or even my time. I know I'm probably holding on for tonight and I will burst when I see him. I can't go on, living in the memory of our love like that. I need to get past this, to stop loving him, to forget about him, about us...

It's time to let it go, go out and start again.

I look at the side of my bed. It feels a little bit bigger. Empty. He appears suddenly, sitting on the bottom side of the bed shirtless. When I try to open my mouth to talk, he leans over and silences me by putting his finger vertically in front of my mouth.

"Baby don't worry, lean on me. It's going to be okay".

His words come as soothing and calming as possible as he leans beside me and I lay on his bare chest, hearing the loud pounding of his heart. I feel my warm tears streaming down my cheek as soon as my face connects with his skin. To say that I miss him as hell is an understatement. When I lift my arm to hug his waist, the physical weight next to me disappears.

I open my eyes and taste the saltiness of my tears. I look at the side again to make sure he is not here anymore. He wasn't here from the beginning. I lay in my tears again tucking my face in my pillow and biting my lip to prevent the tears that do not seem to obey.

The dream took me back to where we started, to when we were okay, to when we were madly in love and it felt so real.

I open my eyes again but they barely do and that's when I realize I am sobbing.

I miss him so much, I miss him sleeping next to me, I miss our small talks, our fights, our hangouts, I miss us.

Why is this happening to me? Why can't I keep myself together? I was just doing fine. I was okay with him not being around. I was trying so damn hard to just let go and live my life. But it all fell apart when I saw him. I knew it was all coming to this point.

I always have high hopes in him and it kills me everytime. It kills me vein after vein.

A knock is heard on my door and I wipe the floods of tears off my face and neck. Liam appears behind the door and as soon as he sees my face, the bright smile he has turned into a deep frown.

"What's happened? Is everything okay? " As he said those words, I remembered Harry words in my dream "Baby, it's going to be okay".

I burst into tears again and Liam comes closer and pulls me up and hugs me tightly. A tender hug I was longing for but from another person.

He caresses the back of my hair as he knows I'm having my inner breakdown. Again.

I get hold of his waist and hug him back as strong as I can.
"I'm tired Liam. I don't know if I can hold on much longer." I sob, my voice deep in his shoulder.

"Hey, I know how it feels. Just take it easy. " he pulls away and and wipes my tears and gazes deeply in my eyes before talking. I feel the tender, the warm, the sympathy in his chocolate brown eyes. His words comfort me and my eyes water again.