Beautiful Mistakes

ch 3

Demi Pov

I hated myself for dumping Niall and i also i hated the fact that I'm so weak, I cant stand up for myself. I really want to be with Niall but the hate is to much I'm afraid of them they don't even know me and there hating i haven't done anything to deserve but maybe if ignore them and try to be strong they would leave me alone maybe if i showed them i don't deserve this that I'm not gonna cry aha just kidding I'm weak i can never stand up for myself just like in high school how they would bully me and i couldn't do anything about it, the worst was when in year 11 which was that year that i dropped out i couldn't take it anymore i need to get out of the horrible place my teachers didn't care and family did pay any attention to me i was alone

#Flashback#

*BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEE- Stupid Alarm, Well here goes another day of school yay im so excited *note the sarcasm* I hated this school so much but i thought positive just one more year that all i keep telling my self this. After i got dressed wearing my school uniform i personally though i didn't look that bad but according to everyone else i did *sigh* i went down stairs and grabbed a water bottle and a apple that basically all i eat all day since everyone including my own sister told me i was really FAT and i need to lose weight so this exactly what i've been doing over 2 months.I grabbed my keys yes i drive but i have to the most shitest car alive but that all i can offered since my parents won't pay me and my work pays me little money *sigh* life so depressing i can never smile not once since i started school have i smiled, here goes nothing as i enter hell you know since like the school is like bad and all that you what nvm anyways as i walk like every morning i get started at and people laugh throw papers,food and cans at me i tried my best not to cry and just keep walking to my locker well that was fun.

As i opened my locker the two popular couples came to me and started telling me thing i already know like how fat i am or pathetic or how i shouldn't be living.

Trish- Look who decided to show at school Damon

Damon- i guess she still think she fits in maybe we should teach her a lesson don't you think babe

What i said what did i do know please don't hurt me please ill do anything i continue to plead I'm shaking so much i think I'm gonna pee my pants, the look in there eyes wasn't pretty and i knew for sure i was n deep shit i was breathing hard and heart started beating so hard i though it would come out i continued to plead and scream but all they did was smirk and call there football team and cheerleaders they all came and surrounded me.

i can see everyone staring at me with pity and disgust everyone in the school was enjoying this except the nerd who hiding behind the crowed look at me with pity and sympathy and i knew from that moment i was never gonna graduate hell im never gonna see my family again. They grabbed me and drag me to the school stadium i kept pleading and crying begging to stop and leave alone but they just laugh and continued dragging me and finally when we got there it was only the football and cheerleader there everyone else left scared of what gonna happen next.

Then Trish came to me holding a knife on her hand by know i think peed my pants because i feel something wet on my pants or its maybe my tear i don't know, she pulled my shirt up and dragged the knife across my stomach and started to write think like worthless, slut, fat but after those three words i started to feel dizzy i couldn't keep my eyes open and the boys came and started to kick me and punch me on of them slap and called me worthless while the others would hit me and stab in many place with the knife they had suddenly i heard sirens and people yelling then everything started to go black i smiled and took my last and told my self i deserved all this I'm worthless and I'm fat i don't deserve to live i saw someone running to me but everything was blurry so i coudn't tell who it was and the everything went black.

#END OF FLASHBACK#

Just thinking of that made me shiver i had all those scars on me still, i always believed no one loved me or cared but then Niall and the boys came along and loved me for who i am and showed me that there is people in the world who love's me.

Just thinking about them made me think is Niall and I relationship worth all the hate if be with him would i be happy again if i stayed with him would he help through all the hate i kept thinking to myself maybe my relationship with Niall is worth all this i mean we can be like Louis and Eleanor or Danielle and Liam they stayed with the boys knowing about everything that gonna happen and they received fans who loved them maybe the fans would love me and accept me maybe not that all keep going through my mind.

After Ten minutes i decide to call Niall

"Niall" I whispered quietly I on the phone .

*Niall pov

I heard my phone ring it was Demi why would she call me maybe she want together again nah she would never want me back i was never supportive her i think its all my fault maybe i should apologise to her. i answered the phone

"Hey Demi I was just about to call you"

HOW WAS THIS ? I TIRED BUT YOU KNOW IT WAS KINDA RUSHED SINCE I WAS BLANK.

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