Forever and Always

Broken

*A/N soooo...I don't know? Umm tell me what you think! I think only one person is reading this but whateves

Chapter 9

Broken

Here I was standing outside in front of a hotel at night balling my eyes out! To be honest I shouldn't even be crying....I mean we weren't even dating in the first place! It's just hurts....hurts a lot! The one thing I treasured the most taken away by something that I have always wanted to be....beautiful. I didn't have any money and I needed to leave now! I couldn't call a cab because they wouldn't drive me unless I would pay them.

From: Ally

Hey...I'm pretty tired I decided to go back to the hotel! See you tm!

I sent the text to Cassie and Lucy decided to sit on a bench and wait for a reply.

From: Cassie

Okay! Your not going to hangout with Louis? Oh another thing was that you who ran out and slammed the door?

It hurt when she mentioned Louis name...no I'm not hanging out with him! He is too busy making out with Eleanor!

From: Ally

Umm no...i think it might have been some couple arguing or something? I saw a woman pretty upset storm out of the hotel and catch a cab.

I lied but I....I couldn't talk about what happened! I mean they were only kissing but to me it felt like some one threw a knife at me and it hit me right in the heart! I mean I think he liked me...he did kiss me...was he just leading me on!

From: Cassie

Alright well talk to you tm! :)

From: Lucy

Alright babe! Talk to you tm! Luv ya :)

I love Lucy's out going personality! She always puts a smile on my face!

She was like a sister to me! I had siblings but my life was such a mess I never got close with any of them!

"Ally! Ally?" I heard a familiar voice calling my name. I looked over and it was Liam. I didn't really want to talk but he saw me before I could get up and walk away.

"Hey Ally!"

"Hey Li"

"About what happ...."

"Liam I don't want to be rude...it's just I don't really feel like talking about Louis..."I said more calmly than I expected.

"Alright well I can drive you back to the hotel....if you want?"

"Umm....if your sure? I don't want to be burden!"

"Ally! You will never be a burden to any of us! We love you! Your our best friend!"

"I guess that's all I will ever be!"

"Ally!" I hadn't even realized I said that out loud.

"Sorry...it's just I lost someone dear to my heart! I didn't even mean to say that out loud! What's happening to me?" I yelled...so pretty much the entire world could hear me.

"Ally....I know how you feel! When Danielle and I broke up my whole world just shattered! I felt like I would always be alone...I felt like my whole world crumbled into a million tiny pieces!"

"Liam...I'm sorry for that! I don't know why she would want to break up with such an amazing person like you! You are so perfect and have this life so many people dream of only having! Your an amazing best friend...if your great at just being a friend then you must be amazing at being a boyfriend!" I said. Liam smiled at me.

"Thanks and I don't know how Louis could give up someone as amazing as you! He must be crazy...I couldn't give up someone like you!"

"Thanks...." I said. He leaned in. His lips brushed mine before I turned my head away.

"Liam I'm sorry!"

"Don't be! I shouldn't have don..." I slammed my lips on to his. I don't know what I was thinking but it felt good. Liam didn't pull away...I didn't know if I was doing this because I wanted compassion or what I just liked the way it felt when our lips hit.

I pulled away. I don't know! Should I be doing this...I mean Liam is an amazing person and Louis and I never were boyfriend-girlfriend.

"I should probably get you back to the hotel..." Liam said.

"Yeah....okay."

We walked over to his car and he opened the door.

"Thanks"I said

"No problem"

The ride to the hotel was quiet and long.

"I can't thank you enough for helping me feel better about the current situation! Your a great friend!" I smiled at him.

"Thanks...." He said a little disappointed.

We pulled up to the hotel and sat there in silence for a while.

"I'll walk you to your floor" Liam said.

"Thanks" We got out of the car and walked into the hotel. We waited a few minutes for the elevator. Once we got on the elevator Liam pressed the second floor button. We stood there in silence listening to the elevator music. It's was pretty calming. *beep* the elevator stopped on my floor. We walked out and to my door. "Ally....don't worry Louis will come around! I promise."

"Liam don't make promises you can't keep..."

"Louis pretty much talked about you all the time....in the morning when he just woke up, while we were eating breakfast, during signings, before concerts and interviews, during lunch, after lunch, dinner, and right before he went to bed, and I'm sure he probably dreamed about you too! Do you see my point? He likes you A LOT! It's not like Louis to do something like that...he just needed a friend and Eleanor was just another person to become friends with. Remember earlier when I told you it's hard to make friends living this type of life...well I mean you can never tell if someone is really your friend or if they are using you because of your fame and money! Eleanor knows what it's like she is a model so they can relate and a person like that is needed when you are famous!"

"Really! He must have been thinking about me while he was making out with Eleanor...huh?" He was silent. "Yupp! That's what I thought...he doesn't need some ugly loser like me to be in his life! Ugh! I'm never wanted! Why can't I just be normal and be able to have people actually like me and want me around...I just want to be loved! I want someone to care about me! Someone to hold me when I'm sad...someone's shoulder to cry on! I want someone to make me soup and watch cartoons with me while I'm sick. Someone to just sit and chill with....someone to talk to and let out of my feelings! Someone I feel comfortable with and I don't have to care about the way I'm dressed or how my hair looks! I want someone to hug me when I need a hug! Someone to kiss me goodnight...tell me I'm beautiful! Someone to share my life with! Someone to love me with compassion and care about me!" I was in tears again! Crying twice in about an hour! I'm so pathetic! Liam had tears welling in his eyes. "The worst part is that will never happen to me! How can anyone love an ugly, fat, pathetic, loser like me! No one!" Liam just stared at me.

"Ally none of that is true! You are beautiful! Your truly amazing! Some day you will find that guy that will engulf you in a bear hug! Someone that will look at you and say 'wow that girls really mine?' Just give it some time!" Liam gave me a small smile.

"I probably sound really dramatic but sometimes these moments in life happen!"

"No you don't! You are just having a rough time right now! I can understand that!"

"Thanks!" I gave him a smile.

"No problem! I should probably get going though....bye" Liam started to walk back to the elevator.

"Wait Liam! Could you please stay the night! I don't want to be alone!"

"Sure!" He smiled.