Okay, so some of you may know me from Snape's Daughter. Very few of you know me from Trininia. Most of you reading this probably found this randomly. In summary, this is just me blowing off steam because i cant really tell most anyone else. this is going to be unedited and raw. (CURSE MY STUPID SPACE BAR FORNOT WORKING!!!!!!)
About me:
My name is Nicole Lena. Yes, I am aware that is a wierd name.
i am five foot three, have hazel eyes and dark blond hair.
i dont usually cuss unless Im really mad. I use words like shaq and applesause.
I love to read and have alot of quirks.
i live in texas, and i am a christian.
okay, so this is what i want to get off my chest:
I just started high school. im seeing all my friends, and the dude i used to like, and the one i like. The guy i likeis dating a girl in 8th gradewho also is my friend. She doesnt know i like him, but cant tell her now. She will go all crazy girlfriend on me. the dude i used to like, didnt know i liked him until this summer. He always came to me for advice and i ended up falling for him. Something i just now realizzed, both of them are players. i think i have a thing for players. Great. but anyways, he asked me whathe should do about liking 1/2 the girls in our grade, and i told him to notdate any1 for a month or so and see who he shud most rather be with. then, i saw him walk out of skewl and kiss a girl who hates me and is a slut (pardon my french), while i was looking4 him to tell himi liked him. it was thelastday of skewl.
so i stewed over it for a few days and sent him a very angry facebook message, and didnt talk to him again. i saw him yesterday, and he was arguing with agirl iknow about a shoe shestole from one of thier friends. he looked up from her (he is like 5' 8") his shoulders stiffened and he suddenly turned and walked away. i think he was afraid i would hit him. A week or two after that message, a deffinate possibility, now? nah, he knows i like him, but doesnt know i dont like him anymore.
the guy i like now,i have liked on and off for a little more than two years. He has these moments where he is really sweet, then a lot more moments where he isa jerk. i playedhard to get for justa bit andwhen i stopped he soon lost intrest. soshud i play these games he plays so often or not? Then there is the eternal question, does he like me? he spent all yesterday not talking to me, but saturday, aftermy day of hard to get, he spent 4 hours with me at the ymca. we swam and walked and played at the park next to it, well i watched him freerun. o.o he told me hisgrandma was dying, andhe isfairly close to her. and his granpa that he was very close to died a few years back.
and a girl i became close to last year, started saying stuff that didntadd up, like her mom dieing of luekemia suddenly then being creamated andnot having a memorial serevice andshe didnt cry at all just flaunt that her momwas dieng and, that she goes to rome and paris every summer, that she almost got to go to an English boarding skewl when we live in a small town, that she is getting a syberian tiger, she was going to be in amoivie where justin bieber and nick jonas played partrs in amovie who fight over her. If she was going to lie to me,she could have said things that were believable. imnot trying to sound insensitive, buti thought she could be acepted into my family. only two people have eveer been clamed by me as sisters who werent related to me leagaly.
so... thats it, please comment and help me figure out what to do.
