Runaway

Why?

Y/n pov

I woke up on the couch in the bus, feeling bandages on my wrists and I look up and find 5 worried and familiar faces staring at me... I was confused and mad "what the fuck? Have u guys ever heard of personal space?!" They all looked confused and backed away, I looked at Andy "what the fuck are U doing here? Don't u have some slut to fuck?" I said, he responds saying "I need to tell u something... That was my ex, Juliet, I was drunk and she kissed me, I'm really fucking sorry I love u a lot and I hate myself for letting her kissing me... And I won't let u cut again, I will never ever let u cut no matter if I'm ur boyfriend or enemy" I looked at him still pissed and CC starts to talk "why did u do this to ur self? To me? Because Andy kissed some slut? That's no excuse, u better never do this again, I love u ok? I'm not gonna lose u." He gave me a hug and said I'd try not to do it again, Andy then looked at them all and said "Can I talk to y/n alone please?" Cc gave him a serious look but then left with the rest of the guys off of the bus. He looked over to me and gave me a sad smile and a tear escaped his eye as he lightly touched my bandages and said "this is my fault isn't it?" In the most broken voice I had ever heard.... I sat up and said "u didn't know it would end up like this.... But yea it kinda is" I looked at him in the eyes and he looked away saying "I'm so sorry... I.... I never wanted to ever hurt you like this.... I've loved you since I first looked into your eyes... As soon as I looked at you I knew I wanted to protect you and be with you..." He looked me straight in the eyes with tears running down his cheeks "I've never loved anyone as much as I've loved you, and I absolutely hate myself for letting my ex kiss me... And I hate myself even more for hurting you to the point that you would harm yourself... Seeing your cuts shattered every piece of me and I would rather die than to ever see you hurt ever again... Seeing you in pain and seeing your beautiful skin cut up like that fucking killed me" he got on his knees next to me and looked my straight in the eyes and said "I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but no matter if you hate me for the rest of your life I will try everyday to make this up to u and never leave ur side.. If... If I could have the chance to do that I promise, no I swear I will love you everyday and i know it's too much to ask if I could be your boyfriend again but...please let me show you how much you mean to me and try to deserve to be your boyfriend..." I looked at him and part of me wanted to cry and beg for him to be mine, but the other side wanted me to slap him and run away.... I had no idea what to do and I had no idea what to say... I was heartbroken but the things he said put my heart back together again and I couldn't say anything all I did was look at him and I couldn't help but put my hand on his cheek and kiss him... I have never had someone love me that much before and I didn't ever wanna lose Andy... Yes he betrayed me but, i don't think it was his fault, and he loves me... I guess I didn't realize that until now.... I couldn't help but love him, and knowing he loved me to, well that made me wanna never let go of him... We continued kissing for a few moments until he looked at me with passion in his eyes and stood up holding out his hand which I accepted and got to my feet, I was so dizzy I had fallen but next thing I knew I was in andys arms and was staring into his eyes.

Andys pov

She's so beautiful.... I can't believe I hurt her so badly, I hate myself for it but what I couldn't believe the most was that she kissed me... Even though she was so hurt she kissed me, it surprised me but made me so happy I wanted to cry... Having her in my arms I could hold her and stare into her eyes forever.. But she snapped me out of my trance by saying "I can stand now Andy" she gave me a beautiful warm smile which made my heart stop, but somehow I had managed to help her up. And as soon as she stood up I couldn't help but to embrace her and tell her how sorry I was... We stayed like that for awhile and we would've embraced longer but we were stopped by a voice none other than Ashley "You guys done yet? Can we come in or are you two fucking already?" I laughed and so did she, I told him " you asshole... Fine u can come in" Ashley immediately came in along with CC, Jake, and Jinx. 

Y/n pov

Even though I have never told anyone about my self harm and I hated the topic, I had to explain how I did it in the past and why to them... I told them how abusive my parents were and how alone I was in the world with CC being out all the time, and I told them how i started cutting at 13... They all were very sympathetic but told me I should've told them awhile ago and CC, well he started crying thinking it was his fault.... It was a really sad night but it was a good one to, I have never talked to anyone about this stuff and talking about it with them, it helped me but also made me feel horrible for making CC think it was his fault, but i did explain why it was never his fault and why he should never feel that way, which made him feel a lot better. So a lot of shit was resolved that night, and we all went to bed around 4 am, yes we talked THAT long, but I think it was the best night of sleep I've ever gotten especially with andys arms around me. A weight lifted off my shoulders that night, one that I've had for a LONG time.