*Just a warning in this chapter there is some sensitive topics such as suicide. So this is just a warning*
Readers P.O.V:
I looked around this looks like some sort of bedroom. Then I remember how before cas took crowley he zapped us somewhere But i don't know where then i saw that emily somehow fell asleep. then all a sudden the light then door opens and dean see's you in your underwear and bra stares for a second then closes his eyes.
"Y/N AND EMILY WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM!!"says dean which then wakes up Emily.
"CAS ZAPPED US HERE!" I say then run off
"what was that for."says Emily
Now i am in my room and thinking about what happened and what dean thought of me... was he disgusted..or... did he like it....I am so curious.
(A couple of weeks later.)
we were all at a bar except castile it was karaoke night and I wanted to sing but for me to do that i had to be pretty drunk and me and dean had a contest who could sing better.
"I am going to kick your ass dean." i say in my drunken state
"yeah right, i will kick your ass." said dean pretty drunk as well
"I will be the judge of that!"said emily much drunker than us
We walked up on the stage and right away I saw angel with a shotgun I squealed a little but i contain myself and i said to the dj " number 23 please." as i started to sing dean was surprised also was sam ,emily and crowley.After the song dean and Y/N shared a passionate kiss then we headed to the impala and drove to the bunker and we headed to his bedroom and we had a passionate night together.but in the morning quite a different story.
"ahhhhh.......Dean? are u up?" i said in a whispery voice
"What Y/N.... why did u wake me up?"said dean
"umm do remember anything about last night?" i asked in a shaky voice
"no it's not like we.." dean sat straight up "did we..i mean did i?"asked dean in a shaky voice as well
"umm...yes we did....I think."i said in a low voice
"crap..... what the hell why ....how did that ...this happen?"dean said in a stern voice
"I don't know." I started to cry " i can't believe this happened" I started sobbing
"everything will be ok." said dean he tried to hug me but i backed away
I got off the bed then slide to the floor i got on my bra and underwear and ran to my room quickly. Then i got straight into the shower.As I was in the shower i sat in the stand up shower in the corner of it with the water running on my face. I started crying, then sobbing. I was so ashamed of myself and what I did. For the next month I stayed in my room i only got out for food at most twice a day. Then one day I saw Castiel and Dean making out on the couch. I ran to my room and i shut the door. with my back against the door i fell onto the ground crying because I did Love dean. But now i see he will never love me so I walk over to my pillow sobbing and i reach for the gun under my pillow as i wrote a note then as i held up the gun to my head sam walked in and he ran to me 'bang'...............he pulled the gun away from my head before I shot myself. I fell on the floor he pulled me into his chest I was crying uncontrollably in his arms and on his strong chest.
"Y/N why would u do that?!"said sam
"MY LIFE MEANS NOTHING ANYMORE!!"I said
Then Castiel and dean came running in from the gunshot fired.
"What happened?"dean asked then he saw Y/N is in Sam's arms crying
"what is wrong with her .... can i help in any way."asked Castile
"castiel I am sorry u cant just fix her with a snap of your fingers this takes time to heal.....with what just happened to her"said sam while comforting Y/N
"ok i .....I mean me and dean will help." castiel said
