Authors note: Omg I haven't posted in Soo long I'm so sorry I've just been really busy and dealing with a lot of family problems, my mental Health, and school I've been stressed and really busy.But I'm doing much better now and I can hopefully post like once a week
readers P.O.V
It has now been a year since that horrible night. I have gotten better I have days where I am happy and thankful for my life ,than other days I am sad and full of self grief and my life would mean nothing to me.But on those sad days Sam is always there for me . I have grown to like him......no i have grown to love him. But i always push those feelings away because i do not want to get hurt again by someone that I loved.So anyway now Castiel and Dean are in a full on relationship, and I think that they are getting engaged soon.Also crowley and emily are together as well and Crowley is aslo helping emily with her deprsion as well. I would have thought that emily would have hated him for what he did to me. Its nice who almost everyone i know is dating but....then a tear fell down my face because it felt like I will never be loved. then i got up on my bed and just slept for the day.Then around 5:00 Sam came into my room to get me for dinner and he saw me sleeping.
"Wow, she is beautiful when she's sleeping."he whispered "Y/N wake up it is time for dinner."he said
"ok Sam be there in a moment" I mumbled.
"see you then." Sam said
when he left i took a quick shower. i changed into some sweatpants and a comfortable shirt.I put my glasses on even though i would usually use contacts but today i didn't want to deal with them right now.
i sat at the dinner table where we were having a nice homemade dinner for everyone. it was a great grilled chicken with a greek salad. Apparently sam made it and it was lovely.
"Sam this dinner it is amazing!" i said
" Thank you Y/N." said sam
"where is everyone else?"
"they went out."said sam
"ok just wondering ."i said
this was such a wonderful moment. After dinner we sat in the couch and watched some tv. It was romantic and without thinking i kissed him.Then he returned the kiss. Then i got up on his lap to make it much easier for us to kiss. Then I heard a door slam shut. I jumped off his lap and looked at the people who came in, it was Dean ,Castiel ,Emily and Crowley.
They had all just got back from dinner. I was so embarrassed at what they saw. So I ran to my room yet again. But this time Sam had followed me. when we got into my room he sat on the bed with me.
"Y/N why do you do this?"said Sam
"Because Sam I am...I can get scared of or even embarrassed easily." I said
"oh well now u have me."said sam then he kissed me
we were on my bed i was on his lap again kissing him he slowly moved his lips down to my neck I moaned then he moved back to my lips. He took off my shirt then i took his shirt. his abs were amazing he had the perfect body.We had an amazing night.
"last night was amazing." i said
"it was awesome."sam said and then he kissed me
"This is the first time where me and a guy spent a night together... and the morning was not me running off and the guy all mad." i said
"you are kidding me right ?"sam said with a concerned voice
"nope ."i said
"so i am the first?"asked sam
"yes..... yes u are sam."i said then i kissed him
