I'll Read to You (Destiel)

Chapter 3 - Third First Kiss

I woke up with a smile on my face and my hands wrapped around my blanket, having had another dream about Cas. Ugh why am I smiling about that? I thought. Nevertheless I was, and I couldn't help but think of how much I actually wanted to dream about him. It was the only good dreams I've had lately.

I usually can't sleep at all, I guess I'm a little bit of an insomniac when it comes down to it. And when I did sleep, it was all nightmares - that is, until Cas showed up. Then it was all rainbows and fluffy romantic bull crap in my dreams. And I wanted stuff like that to happen, but with Jo, my girlfriend.

We'd grown close over the course of the last four days: the time I've known Cas. He was without a doubt my best friend. We spent the days at his house and the nights in my back yard. I'd driven him around in the Impala for a bit and honestly, I felt something growing in me. In fact, the only reason I didn't do anything about it was Jo. I still liked her, a lot. More than Cas.

So when Jo called and said she wanted to hang out with Cas and I, I had a feeling I would be in deep shit. I called Cas and told him we were going out for lunch with Jo.

"Awesome I guess... " He paused and I heard him mutter something, before asking "Where?"

"Jon Thomas. Best bacon cheeseburgers around," I replied. I heard him gasp.

"I love burgers!" he screamed.

"Calm yourself."

"Well I'll be over soon... I guess." He tapered off at the last words.

"Cas are you okay?" I asked. I heard him take a deep breath.

"No, Dean, I'm not okay! I'm nowhere near okay!" he yelled. There was a good fifteen seconds following of silence.

"Cas?"

"You know I love you, so why are you bringing me on a date with your girlfriend?" he finished, his voice a whisper. I broke right then and there. I was tired of being yelled at by people, whether it was Sam, or my father. And now I had to deal with that in my best friend? No. My only friend? I built up all of my anger and confusion in one deep breath.

"You have no right to be mad at me! You're my best friend, Cas, and I can't shove you away just 'cause Jo shows up! And anyway, you're lying. How do you love someone after four days Cas?!" I snapped. I heard a sharp intake of breath from the other line. I slowed my breathing again and I heard a quiet sniffle. "Cas I'm sorry. I didn't mean to- "

"It's fine," he said stiffly. "I'm in way over my head anyway."

"Cas no, it's not your fault. I'm just... confused right now." I swear I could feel his hope, but also his sadness through the phone. "Just don't take it personally if I snap." I heard the phone shake against his skin as he nodded.

"Cas I can't see you." He gave a little embarrassed laugh and hung up.

I ran downstairs to the door when the doorbell rang about two hours later. I heard Jo's voice. "Open up, Winchester!"

I threw the door open and grabbed my keys on the way out. "C'mon, the burgers aren't going to eat themselves." She just stood there, mouth open as I sprinted straight to the car. I saw Jo stiffen as Cas came down the stairs as well, following me out to the car. We had ben playing SMITE for an hour or so. He at least had the decency and the intelligence to realize something was wrong, and to sit in the back. Jo got shotgun.

"What I don't get a kiss?" she asked, teasing. I leaned in and kissed her with a smile on my face and I heard Cas shuffling around awkwardly. "Nice coat, Castiel," she said, being obnoxious. My face flushed red with guilt.