It's my brother's birthday today. My dad told me to wis him a happy birthday; I had a panic attack at my friends house.
It's almost christmas and I'm in tears, life is pushing me and he isn't going to be there, the one man who raised me, who made me laugh and who made me smile as a child.
my friend whom I haven't talked to in 2 years wants to kill herself and she's telling me all of this and how she's going to do it and it triggers me. She's telling me about how she wants to drown in the lake next to my house so that I can know where she killed herself.
My gender identity is even more of a joke now, it even made my ex-girlfriend laugh, thanks. I told my mum to call me by my the name all of my friends do and she yelled at me.
well I got to go now, bye diary
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thoughts from anexity filled nights
PoetryI just want a place to gather my thoughts. read if you want to.
