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by alanskitten

by alanskitten

•A wish•

I was asked by my father eariler today to tell him a wish I had. Of course I can't tell him my real wish. But I'll do it here.

I wish for a mum who'd be able to tell when I'm lying. I want her to stop and ask me genuinely how I AM not just a fast "how are you?" And after that's said she'd just ignore me to a 100%

I wish for a mother who I can tell my most inner toughts and feelings.

I wish for a mum who I would be able to tell about how I'm genderfluid and unsure if what I wanna be called,boy or girl? But I can't do that,right mother?

No of course not,you an academic. You dont really believe in that stuff you don't believe that people can be something inbetween a boy and a girl.

I wish for a mum who I'd be able to say:

"Mum. I'm not bisexual,I'm homosexual. A lesbian if you wanna say so"

I wish for a mum who'd understand my life choices,like me being straight edge. That I hate drugs,alcohol and cigarettes.

I wish for a understanding family that i dare talking to.

I wish for a sister who I could trust without her telling my mum.

I wish that i didn't have a father.

I wish that I could make someone happy,the way some people make me happy.

Good night diary