Young, scared and throwing up.

One

= The beach, ice cream, heaps of friends and fruit salad is the way my birthday parties have been since I can remember, but I wasn't complaining about it at all. The day I turned 8 was the happiest day of my life and all my best friends and favourite family members were there to celebrate with me. Everyone was running around in swimmers and hats and I had the biggest smile on my face. My cakes was a caterpillar that was yellow and orange because unlike normal 8 year old girls, I didn't like pink. I was never like any other girls my age anyway. I never wanted to play with dolls and do makeup. I was out playing in the mud and fishing with my brothers and their friends. I just couldn't see the fun in makeup and lifeless dolls.=

It's the day before my 16th birthday and I'm spending it drunk alone in my apartment, what a great way to plan to spend your "sweet 16th" right? I mean the only people I would want to spend my birthday with are Onyx, who is my best friend in the world but she lives 3 hours away so we don't see each other as much as we would like too but we Skype all the time, my close friends Vic and Mike who are brothers with their own very successful band and my ex, Sierra, she is a year older and may I say is super hot and a really close friend.

"Fuck it! I've had 3/4 of a bottle of jack Daniels and I miss her. Being drunk is an excuse for a late night call isn't it? Well too bad it's mine and who is going to stop me? My housemate Berry is at some club probably fucking a chick behind the club and won't be home till tomorrow so, fuck it, I'm calling her." I stumble to grab my phone off the speaker dock as I can barely see my hands. The time displayed on the screen is 11:23 so she will be in bed but I don't care at the moment. I unlock my phone and go to my recently called. Her name is third down and is saved as only a broken heart emoji.

" Umm hello?" Her sleepy confused voice murmurs through the phone.

"Hey Shae. I was wondering you wanted to come down for a bit. I'm bored and lonely. Please because it's the night before my birthday and I don't wanna spend it alone."

She lives on floor 13 which is only 2 floors above me in our apartment complex which makes it very convenient at times like these. We see each other every day because we both leave for work at 7:45  so we have a chat in the lobby every morning. It's good we still talk every day and I hope we never stop speaking.

"I'll be down in 10 just let me put a shirt on. See you soon." Her sweet voice says as the line drops out.

Now I just have to pick myself up off the lounge room floor and wipe the tears from my cheeks. I grab onto the couch cushions and try to lift myself up which evidently doesn't succeed and I end up on the ground again. The third time I finally get it and just in time because there is a knock on the door as I stumble to it. I tell myself I'm going to hold back from collapsing into tears as soon as I hug her but it's never worked before. Every time I see her and I'm drunk i fall into her arms and ball my eyes out. I fucking hate it. But this time should be different.

As I open the door in greeted with a tired and warn out look from Shae. I call her that because she likes Shae butter and creams. As she pushes her way through the door and lunges into a hug she knocks the door and it hits me in the hand.

-Fuck that could be broken by how much that hurt but what does it matter? I have the love of my life in my arms.-

I push the door closed as we start to stumble back towards the couch while still in the warm embrace. As we start to fall onto the couch I hear a smash. Oh shit, the bottle of jack. Shae is going to be so angry at me. She hates me drinking at all. She's what one might call 'Straight Edge' so she would never touch the stuff. I only started drinking after she up and left me for no good reason. Though I don't blame her completely for my dependency on alcohol to get through the week, she does play a minor part.

As the bottle breaks she looks at me with her disappointed and guilty eyes. I can see is very disappointed with me and I don't blame her. But I've tried to stop before. I've tried so hard to stop the alcohol but I can't seem to do it.

"You shouldn't be drinking that you know. It damages your soul." She says sitting up with her legs crossed facing me.

"I know. But when my souls been ripped to shreds, it sorta helps forget it all." I respond as I stand up with tears starting to build in my eyes and go to find a broom.

As I begin to stand up and walk away she grabs the back of my shirt and pulls me  back onto the couch.

"Judging by the amount of liquid that is on the floor I can see you've had a lot to drink. I'll go get it hey?" As she sits me upright and walks to the kitchen.

As she gets to the bench I can make out her figure with her elbows on the bench and her head tilted back and I know she is crying. I get up to go and try and comfort her but stumble on the lip where the two rooms meet and end up falling face first onto the kitchen floor behind me. Her head jolts up and she turns around and kneels down to make sure I'm okay. I try to lift my head up to look at her but I have the worst headache from smashing my head of the floor. She picks me up slowly and moves me over to the table and chairs that are closer than the couch. She places me on one of the chairs and pulls one over to me so she can prevent me from falling again.

"This is why I am glad you called. Imagine if you were by yourself right now? You would be lying on the ground crying and eventually pass out and wake up in the kitchen confused."

- Wouldn't be the first time I've woken up in the kitchen alone and confused -

I guess it's become a regular thing for me to wake up in random places these past 3 weeks so I guess it'll be nice to wake up in a bed. After about 20 minutes of drunk talk we stumble to my room. We get to my room and I throw myself onto my bed. As Shae begins to leave I notice.

"Will you please stay" I don't wanna wake up alone tomorrow. Please?" I beg as she stares at me from across the room.

"Okay but let me go and clean the bottle up and lock the door Okay?I'll be right back." She leaves and the door is left open slightly.

After about 15 minutes she comes back into my room with a glass of water for me. She insists I take a drink before we go to bed. She passes the water to me and turns around and shuts the door. I place the glass of water on my bedside table and roll over to cuddle her. She wraps her arms around me and kisses me on the forehead.

"I love you Shae." I mumble as I start to pass out.

"I know and you know I'll always love you. Now go to bed I'll be right here when you wake up." She says as she rests her head on the top of my head.

- I guess this is better then waking up alone on the cold hard ground. Plus I didn't break down when I hugged her. So tonight's different I guess-