Don't Forget to Give Mommy a Hug...:-)

When Life is at Its Limits, What Should We Do?

Mommy why are we here?

Instead of answering me she pats my head like she always do and she said these words...

"Be strong baby, .."then she kissed my cheeks. I dont know but I'm crying right now...I can't help it.

Mom why are you crying? My mom's crying but I can see her encouraging eyes and smile instead of sadness. But my question is why?

"Baby always remember mommy is always by your side okay? "

Err..yes mommy. Naweiweirduhan ako kay mommy but then again she smiled and she said these unbelievable words,

"Baby, always remember mommy loves you...you and your ate be strong okay....I'm sorry but

...

Bye :'("

Those words struck me I can't move I wanted to run and touch mommy but before I can do that the image of mommy blurred. Before it gets blurred I said these words, mommy I Love You lets play tomorrow okay?

She smiled and mommy said I Love You and Your ate once again but I saw sadness? But then again napalitan iyon ng ngite an encouraging smile but I don't know I really feel pain and hurtache? Hays, hindi ko nanaman nahug sa mommy bukas na lang siguro.

Ring Ring Ring...

I was awake by the ringing of cellphone..I checked the time its 1:00 ohh I was asleep. I peeked at the door and there I saw lola crying having conversation to the other line...

*Phone conversation..*

"Don't tell me..."

"Madam I'm sorry but she, she, your daughter died, she's tough pero di na po kinaya ng katawan niya.."

"What?"

"She, she died?"

"Opo masyado pa pong bata ang anak niyo para mamatay, Well, maybe that's how life is. We can't do anything when life meet its limit.."

"Yes, she is too young to die."

"I'm feel sorry for her but maybe its God's plan so she wont suffer anymore..."

"You're right madam

"What's the time of her death?"

"She died this 12:40 am"

"Okay dont worry Ill tell nana tomorrow Ill take care of the kids."

There I saw ate at the side also crying and I dont know what I feel right now parang tinutusok ang heart ko lalo na ng nakita ko si lolang umiiyak na.

Naramdaman kung mabasa basa na ang mukha ko and I realized that I am crying.

I go out of my room and said

"What's wrong why are you crying? Lola ate?" I asked confused.

Lumapit sa akin si lola...

"Nana wala na siya, wala na siya... "

Dun hindi ko alam parang may tinik sa puso ko.Masakit pa nong umalis si papa, masakit pa pagnasisira ang doll ko, masakit pa pag nadadapa ako...

"Lola sinong wala na?" I asked to confirm.

Umiling si lola then sinabi niya ang word na nakapagpinting sa tainga ko.

"Wala na ang mommy mo." then she sobbed

Nagwala ako

" No no no way! She's not dead I will hug her pa eh, she also promise to play with me tomorrow, she will teach me to pack my things pa ehh :'(" sadness is an underestimation to what I feel right now.

Im sobbing, No not sobbing! Crying is the best word to use and ate and lola also

Lola hug me tight while Im saying that my mom is not dead.

But I guess huli na ako. Wala na, wala na ang mama ko, ang inspiration, friend, kalaro, lahat na. Parang di ko na kaya. I was too dumbed to even realize the sadness she hide on those facades.
Then I remember what happened lately.

Flash Back.

When we were at the hospital...

"Baby go home sleep tight, okay? Take care of yourself, mama will stay at your side and mama always love you. Always remember that honey, okay?"

"Take care of ate, be a nice girl, I love you, both of you."

Yes mama I will bye, then I run outside because I really dont want staying there the aura in that room is so cold but I never thought that that will be the last time I ll be hearing I love you from mommy.

I wish during that time I tell I Love You Too, and I HUGGED her....

Present

"Nana, dont cry okay?"

"Im sure your mommy is happy right now shes not in pain and she also told you to be strong aight?"

"Yes but lola I need her..."

Shes happy now be happy for her. She will never fell pain in heaven God will take care of her.Come lets pray..."

We went to the chapel and I prayed

"God please take care of mommy, please hug her for me. Please, love her, please comfort her and assure her that I'm happy for her that she will not suffer in pain right now, please tell her I'll make her proud but I cant promise I'll be the old Nana back then, but Thank you God kayo na po bahala sa amin ni ate, please make us strong, please guide us."

"Siguro ito na talaga ang least na magagawa natin when life meets its limit, ang magdasal sa Kanya.Dahil kahit gaano tayo nahihirapan, kahit gaano natin Siya sisisihin andyan pa rin Siya para sa atin..Siguro tama nga sila..The last thing I should do is to...

"LET GO"

Love lots. Sana nagustuhan nyo kaya kayo guys gawin niyo na ang kaya niyo for them bago mahuli ang lahat. :)

Alam niyo kasi sometimes nagtatampo ako sa mommy ko but what if this happens to me? Ni hindi pa man lang natin sila nasasabihan ng I Love You, ni hindi pa man lang natin sila nayakap bago sila umalis. Kaya sana guys, Don't Forget To Give Your Mommy a Hug---A hug that will say how much you love and how you forgive at kung gaano niyo tinanggap ang isa't isa bilang sila hindi sa kung anong nagagawa nila.