My Tortured Cries

Scared Anger

Date Unknown.
These shadows torment me
I'm so scared and I don't know why
My chest is tense
I feel like I can't breathe
I want to throw up
I want to cry
I want to hide
What makes me wonder is that why do I feel the need to write it down
A legacy?
To be heard?
So I don't feel in vain
Yes that's it
Everything is going by so fast
It's scaring me
I want to cry

Date Unknown.
Just the idea of death
The though of someone else's blood on my hands
Makes me so excited
//I want them all dead
I get this deep feeling in my chest
It feels so right
So great
Telling me that I need to kill
//kill them all
I see flashes
Flashes of blood and hell
Somewhere that I created
//I want it real
Splashing in blood throughout the streets
Black clouds in the sky
Dead bodies are easier to find than a penny on the ground
I'm covered in bloody and scars
//I like my scars
Red tears stream from my eyes
//why am I smiling
I want to rip open my scars
Tare them until I can see bone
I want to do the same to others
//I blame him
I want to taste blood again

Date Unknown.
A sick mind and a normal life
When you are sick how can you be cured
Especially when you make yourself sick
How can you cure someone of something they already are
Something they were born with
Something they don't want to go away
Because when you are sick in the head
You don't want help
Because eventually this is how they were born to be
Sick