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Stay Strong

' Louis POV '

We've been home for 4 days now, and I still didn't want to leave our flat.

We decided that we'll just wait inside until that I feel that I'm ready. Ready to be sitting in a wheelchair in front of everyone, to get hate that I can't anymore do concerts or what ever, I can't even think about without crying.

Talking about crying, that's what I have been doing during these days.

I just have to make the best of the situation.

I woke Harry up so he could help me up to the sofa, then he fell asleep again and I was sitting in the sofa watching Tv.

Me and Eleanor had a fight yesterday, and we almost broke up.

Or that's actually what I want, because I don't have any feelings for her anymore, and because of Harry.

I'm almost sure that I have feelings for him. I guess he doesn't have that so whatever.

But I really need to tell Eleanor that I don't have feelings for her, I couldn't lie for here telling I love her when I actually don't.

That's when I felt my phone in my pocket, wow I hadn't used my phone for a long while!

I tapped the Twitter icon and I saw I had a lot of mentions and people were trending a lot about the accident.

I decided to tweet something to let them know how I felt.

But what could I write? That I'm feeling shit and I just want to die?

Nuh uh.

That I feel scared and I'm really ashamed and won't come outside until I can walk again?

Nuh uh.

" Wow this can't be easy.. " I thought as I started to write.

@Louis_Tomlinson

I just wanted to say that I love you all so much and that I keep fight every day, even I feel like I want to give up, then I just read your comments and I feel a bit better. xx

I pressed the send button.

Maybe I should write something else?

Already 10 minutes later #StayStrongLouis and #WeLoveYouLouis were trending.

" morning Lou " I heard Harry said behind me

I turned my head around to see Harry in only his underwear. Wow.

" Like what you see? " Harry asked with a smirk

" Wh.. What... " I said

" Ah, nothing. Are you hungry? " he asked as he sat down next to me

" Yes " I answered back

" Do you want me to carry you? " he asked shyly

I nodded and he carried me to the kitchen.

" Can you make panncakes? " I asked

" Everything for you " he said with a smile

He placed me at one of the chairs and started to cook.

" What do you want to do today? " Harry asked

" Nothing. Movie day? " I said

" Sounds like a good idea " he said and smiled

" Harry thank you " I said

" For what? "

" For taking care of me, you don't know how much it means, and I just love you so much "

" I love you too " he mumbled quiet

I think I've never blushed that much in my whole life. Well I guess I looked like a tomato face right now.

" And I know you're strong enough to fix this, I know you will fight through this and I know that soon you can walk again and do whatever you want" he said and gave me a little smile

I just nodded and hugged him tight, never wanted to let him go.

" Lou can't breathe over here " I heard Harry said

" Haha sorry " I laughed

" Is that a smile I see over there? " Harry said pointing at my mouth

" Oh shut up " I said

" Let's start a movie, aye? " he asked

I nodded and he carried me bridal style to the living room.

We decided to see Love Actually as I know was one of Harry's favorites.

He played the start button and cuddled up next to me.

" Louis.. " Harry started

" Yea? " I said concentrated on the move

" There's actually something I need to tell you... Something important "

" What? " I said as my heart went faster ,I looked back to him, while something very unexpected happened.

He looked right into my eyes with a serious look, put his hand on my chin.

Is this a dream?

Then he leaned in and kissed me.

Is this happening, or if I'm dreaming, please don't wake me up.

It was the most perfect kiss ever, his perfect lips against mine felt like thousands of butterflies and fireworks, or things that I couldn't even explain.

" I'm in love with you. " he said, looking down to the floor and blushed

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