Constant uncertainty

It still haunts me to this day

I wish and pray it will go away

Their words become embedded into your brain

Making you feel like you're completely insane

When even you can't accept who you are

Has the world really gone that far?

Forcing onto you their belief

So that you feel you're causing them so much grief.

You want to be able to be who you are

You want to be able to go to the bar

And leave with whoever

And find that person you'll learn to treasure

But instead you hold back

And your world remains black

The fear of what they'll say

Haunts you everyday

When finally overcoming this and expressing myself

I'm still left doubting oneself

"You can only like one gender!"

They say, treating me worse than an offender

"Bisexuals are cheaters and greedy"

They make you feel so desperate and needy

"You're clearly just in denial"

So that's it, I state I'm gay and that's final!

I continue my life,

Plans of having a wife

But that doesn't turn out to be my happy ending

And my life starts descending

I become completely conflicted

And feel unbelievably restricted

Because of all these labels

And what they disable

I just want to be me

Whoever that may be

But now I'm constantly questioning

Every thought and feeling I'm developing

You're left feeling so confused

Their words making you feel torn and abused

To the point where you can never be proud

And admit who you like out loud

For fear of judgement and misunderstanding

They become so demanding

Now I've met a man

My past is a 'phase' so they're more a fan

They ignore that part of me

And they just can't see

The damage they've done

Because now they really have won

Making me question the feelings I was once so confident with

Making me feel my sexuality is more of a myth