Dear Alex, An Austin Mahone Love Story

letter 4

Dear Alex

it has been a really long day. it was my first day back at work without you. I just have to say the cafe isn't the same without you. I think writing letters is helping me although it still makes me feel crazy. Austin is still in town but I haven't seen much of him. guess he's been busy because he hasn't bothered to call of text. the last day I saw him was your funeral. it actually felt like I had my best friend back for that one night but then I woke up the next morning and he was gone. like it was all just a dream or a grief induced hallucination. I want to call him and hear his voice again but I guess I am too proud because I haven't done it yet. I feel like I am just bitching and that's not me. I wish i had you here so i could talk to you in person. so i could hug you again and feel your warmth and hear your voice telling me that everything is going to be ok. i can't wait until i can see you again. maybe this life isn't for me. I need you, I miss you. you made my life worth living. and now you aren't here anymore. I just wish you would have talked to me about your feelings you didn't have to leave. oh I almost forgot your mom brought me

your favorite hat. I love it. I used to steal it all the time and we would wrestle for it. guess I won in the end. ha ha! well it's late and I am going to go to bed. I promise I will write you soon. I always keep my promises.

sorry it took so long. I had to write this on my tablet so I am aware that there are mistakes.

Well update soon.